to the person i miss most.

6/25/10.

i racked my brain for someone to write to today;
and in the end, i picked you.
my kasie.
my golden-haired seraph.
you were always just out of my reach.
just barely out of my league.
you wrote so beautifully,
you've always been my muse.
but there was once a day that you
would coo to me in your baby voice
and soothe my ravaging demons
and bloodthirsty monsters.
but now, i watch you from a distance.
we only occasionally talk,
long enough for you to say
that you remember me and that you
still love me, you really do.
i just miss hearing about your
walks through graveyards and
nights spent fighting your worst enemies
and hardly coming out with a scrape.
and even when you cried because you
relapsed with your coke habit
i still loved you.
i still listened.
kasie,
nothing ever happened to make me miss you.
you're just so distant now.
you never stay in one place for long.
if you ever get out of florida or
chicago or wherever you are
and make your way here,
i'll have a swing saved for you by my side.
i love you, my dollface.
i'll always be right where you left me
when you spread your wings.