to my ex.

6/17/10.

john -
whenever i think of what i would
ever say to you, the first thing that
always pops into my mind is that i'm sorry.
when it gets down to it,
we were all wrong for each other.
and we were so insistent that we were the perfect fit.
but we aren't,
we never have been.
i should have recognized that from the beginning.
when i think about it,
i honestly sometimes wish i'd never gone into it.
we just weren't right.
you were sweet, and we were poetic.
but that was the most i could say.
i'm sorry i dragged your heart around.
i should've let you go after day two.
and when you said that he'd be my
karmic payback, well, it was true.
so all i can really say to you is,
i'm sorry i didn't just leave.
that i didn't just end it when i had the first
sneaking suspicion we wouldn't work out.
i loved you, but not in the right way.
i wish you all the best.