i guess honesty really is the best policy, isn't it?

quote was from mayday parade's "the last something that meant anything." 6/10/10.

you could have had me forever.
i fought for you and i would continue to
until the end of the whole goddamn planet.
i gave you my heart shred by shred.
i don't think you ever understood how
much i was willing to give up for you.
i don't think you ever, ever understood
how much i loved you.
i don't always show it well.
and well, when i said forever,
i meant it at the time.
you had my heart in the palm
of your f*****g hand and in the end,
all i feel is that you just toyed with it.
just like everyone else.
you said you weren't everyone else...

i still think about you every day.
but it makes my heart hurt,
because i love(d) you.
i only ever wanted to hear it from you.
i gave you every opportunity.
why couldn't you just be honest?
(i loved you, i loved you;
you'll never know what
that meant to me.)

so that explains the reason i
left so quickly and easily.
that explains the unwarranted anger.
that's why i came back:
to give you a second chance because
i loved you and i wanted to
be there for you, but i couldn't
unless you were honest with me.
and i just.
after a certain point i just
couldn't hold it in anymore.

the things i never told you.

in the end, i still think you only got close to me
so you could get closer to him.
i just hope it was all worth it.


"so tell me, honestly...
was it ever really worth this?"