Valentine’s Day

It was valentine’s day.
Another bromide excuse for hedonists to indulge in acts broken before them-
without understanding the concepts,
the yearning to participate
in an attachment soon to plunge,
without penance.

That's how he viewed the world-
but I longed for it.
I longed for it,
alright.

I wanted to feel noticed,
loved,
and seen-
with an (obscure gaze) to personalize the emotions felt throughout divinely.
That's what made me feminine,
curious in nature,
and loving at touch.

I wanted it all,
he didn't.

Instead,
he'd drown out the nonsense in the attic
with a fifth of jack
and a bottle of vodka for the lady,
pull out his laptop,
and write about cheap blondes getting fucked on pills.

I ripped a page from his notebook
and sat at the other desk, my hands on my head…

How did I get here?

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Well, life is full of lessons. Disparate desires, disparate world views coming together, each seeking something different. The result is as described. Pain sucks, but it can also educate. No need for bitterness, no need for defensiveness. Just absorb what has happened and learn from it. Better times are always possible.

[Coyote Poetry]

Dear Marina. Everyone want attention. Everyone need to feel loved and appreciated.
"I wanted to feel noticed,
loved,
and seen-
with an (obscure gaze) to personalize the emotions felt throughout divinely.
That's what made me feminine,
curious in nature,
and loving at touch."
I liked the above lines. I tell the young people. Love is like a flower garden. Need kindness, concern and reminders someone cares. If we forget love, love shall forget us. Thank you my friend for sharing your amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[lovelymarina]

Yes that's what we all long for... love and connection. Thank you for the kind review as always, Coyote.
Marina

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome dear Marina.

[Shelley Warner]

Oh wow, what a sad poem. The narrator deserves better. Three years ago, after being widowed for several years, I reconnected with my first boyfriend. He is tender and kind. I feel so fortunate. Your poem was very descriptive and well written.

[lovelymarina]

That's amazing and happy for you.
Maybe when dealing with these types of dark and mysterious souls, we tend to not want much more or better...
Thanks for the beautiful review.
Marina

[Fran Marie]

It happens like that when he and she
are not on the same page.his views
are influenced by the bottle and
there you sit stuck wondering
how you got to such a dark place
a dark Valentine' indeed

[lovelymarina]

Couldn't have said it better.....thanks for the review fran :)

[L.E.Osborne]

I really enjoyed this. I love the dark nature of it and how although it's far from what you imagine valentine's day is or should be, I absolutely believe it is reality. Maybe more real than what we imagine valentine's day is. Beautiful! x

[lovelymarina]

and a true story!!! Thanks for the feedback :)