Why?

I know this poem is crap. No rhythm, no anything. But it has my feelings. And I'm extremely broken right now, so please don't judge me.

Why can't I f*****g be,
Good enough for someone?
Why can't I stop being,
Shot in the heart with a gun?

I'm not good enough,
So why did you pretend?
Why did you ever pretend to,
Care more than just a friend?

Why did you use me?
Why did you hurt me?
Why'd you break my heart?
Couldn't you just let me be?

My f*****g heart is trashed,
What I thought was love is gone,
But you don't care the slightest,
To you, it was only ever a con.

All the "I love you"s..
You should've just said,
"I hate your guts,
I want you dead",
That would've been better.

Reviews

[Sheila Kline]

I am sorry you continue to feel this intense pain! May you heal and find a bit of happiness again! I see you want to close your account. Please don't! It is okay to write of what is bothering one. It is good therapy, and does not always have to mean anything to another. Writing is coping, venting, lots of things for different poets.
Please don't be so very hard on yourself!!

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you, Miss Sheila. I'm working on it :/

[Rabbi Tzephanyah Ben Yo..]

Angry and Sad Excellent display of raw emotion

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you.

[Euro]

Hey girl, I'm glad that you let them emotions come out. It's always good to have something to let go of that fury and a poem is the perfect solution.
I do hope that by the time you read this, you are feeling much more relieved.
-Penelope H.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

I honestly am! Hahaha, thanks so much (:

[Euro]

That's good to know! :D

[Serenity Faith]

I'm sorry darlin that you've been hurt to that extent :( but, you are not alone in this pain. Just stay strong and rise above it! You're still so young and you've got so much more life in you that you've yet to live! Love, and I mean real live will come to your door when you least expect it to. The idiot that broke your heart will realize how much of an idiot he is, trust me...or he'll experience hearbreak himself one day. You are a beautiful and obviously talented lady. So hold that chin up, and smile even when it hurts...that'll just tick the hate in the world off more ^_~

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you Emily! I'm doing my best to stay strong. And hahah, yeah, one thing I do know about love is that it's totally surprising and mysterious, so I've no doubt that what you said is true. And haha, I will (:

[Patrick Henry]

I don't ever like "piggy-backing" off of another's comment, but that was a beautifully written comment for Amanda to read and a poem that is tough for me to comment on...... being that I am biased to Amanda's smile when she is ready to show it!! : ) Beautiful words from a beautiful girl, Emily. Both of you girls... my goodness!! A perfect addition to a poem worth commenting on to show support for both author and sentiment. xoxox -Your Mark

[Serenity Faith]

Teehee thank you Mark ^_^ I was just telling Amanda honestly that she's a tough yummy cookie that the world can't eat or crumble xD

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Haha, thanks y'all (:

[Pax]

quite a release,great infact, don't worry your not alone in this kind of feelings. writing your feelings is a healing process, write those pondering thoughts and i know you'll feel at ease... the thing is broken heart is also a learning process, your young and have a long journey ahead of you... be strong. thanks for sharing and the invite ms. Carol :)

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Yeah, expressing feelings through writing definitely helps to calm me down and make me feel better. I know I have a lot to learn because I'm young and all that, but it'll definitely be a difficult journey. It's amanda, by the way, haha(: not carol :P

[Pax]

sorry about the name... i find carol short for caroline your screen name...much easier to remember :)...ok I will use ms. Amanda which is much better... i know the journey is difficult, there is no easy ways or even a shortcut, for me...Life is a challenge all the way... be strong and don't give up.. :)

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Hahah, it's fine, caroline is my middle name :P and yeah, but taking no shortcuts and instead facing the difficult obstacles will just make the reward at the end of the journey so much more rewarding (: and I'm doing my best to be strong, I've definitely been better these past couple of days.

[Pax]

that's great to hear your feeling better, i see writing really helps... keep penning those thoughts...

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Haha, I definitely will (:

[Angelic_Dreamer]

If u ask me I truely think this did have rhythm once again I didn't think it was a poem that made me want to go the other direction(HAHA PICK ONE DIRECTION IF UR A DIRECTIONER).It truely poured out your soul and affections in this and I think thats what makes it special. If he were to read this I'm pretty sure he'd understand that he made the worst mistake in the history of mistakes.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

No, he probably has read this, and I believe he doesn't care.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

But thanks Lilian!

[Angelic_Dreamer]

wow then he is a real jerk!!!:( And ur welcome

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Yeah, I don't know what to think anymore :/

[Angelic_Dreamer]

well no wonder

[An owl on the moon]

Aching in your words... you're such a wondrous, beautiful friend... Please know that you are more than just "good enough." I know the pain of heartache doesn't just go away... I carry scars still... and that makes me ache for you even more. You deserve so much better... May you find countless kind and loving friends to surround you now while you heal... and you will.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you, Craig. For everything!

[An owl on the moon]

Thank YOU, Amanda for being a true light in this world for all of us...

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Hahaha, thank you for the same :P I'm not so bright and happy of a light at the moment though :/

[Ahmad Cox]

Hug. I am sorry that your heart is hurting like it is. I will be sending a little bit of extra love your way.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you Ahmad.

[Brittany Zedalis]

I love it.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you Brittany.

[Red]

You can obviously write your feelings down and turn it into words... I see that your only 13 and that's impressive. But what you have written reeks of cliché heartbreak grumbles from days long grown old. Perhaps if you tired to disguise the truth behind the story and tried to express your feelings through another story you would come up with a much more readable poem. Keep it up, hope your hear heels soon.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

I couldn't even see through the tears when I was writing this, let alone worry about what the poem was like. I just wrote. And I believe that once you write a poem down and decide you're done with it, you shouldn't go back and edit it.. Its like trying to edit your soul. So I'll just leave it as it is, my heartbreak was definitely not cliche, I'm sorry if I conveyed it that way. Thanks for your feedback.