Without a Sound

I'm sorry guys.. I'm still a mess. I guess y'all will just have to put up with me until I'm done venting through poetry :P I have more questions than answers, and writing helps me think. So, thanks (:

Those adorable little messages,
That immediately brought a smile,
The sound of his sweet voice,
That left me blushing for awhile...

Today's our eleven month,
Supposed to be special and happy,
He hasn't talked to me though,
So instead I'm sad and lonely.

Yeah, cute guys flirt sometimes,
But they don't matter to me,
I hardly notice them,
With him, is all I want to be.

I'm still extremely confused,
I call him my rock, but he's gone,
Not permanently, hopefully,
But... What exactly is going on?

What should I think?
Did I do something wrong?
I feel like I messed up a lot,
I don't even feel like I belong.

Can I just have some answers?
That's all I ask for, please...
I just don't know what I did,
Why is this happening to me?

Why can't love be perfect?
It's the biggest mystery of all,
Love is an uncharted territory,
And it's usually where I fall.

It's not that I don't know how,
It's just that I make mistakes,
So many mistakes cause problems,
And problems lead to heartbreak.

I want to pull out of this though,
I'm tired of losing ones I love,
A lot of them are my fault,
But when did push come to shove?

I have so many questions,
Answers are nowhere to be found,
Kind of like my love...
Who vanished without a sound.

Reviews

[Rahul]

This write could be a great write, i think it's a great song. I liked this big write... your efforts, your emotions, your truth as well as lie and your weakness as well as your strength .. all you've dropped in this piece. Nice work once again as usual :) 100/100.

[Wonderful Letdown]

The emotions in this are ringing clearly. The confusion, love, loss, pain, sadness, longing, self-blame. So much is packed into it, it's amazing. Very well written.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Awwww, ohmygosh, thank you! (: I worked hard on this one.

[Wonderful Letdown]

Haha and it really showed. You are quite the talented writer.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you so much (:

[Quiet Child]

It's a heart touching poem; full of emotion and love as well as loss. it's a great write and i absolutely love it. assuming its a personal experience; i would agree on the part that you cant let it get you down too much. you know you'll always return to the horse; this was probably one of your first loves correct? its always hard the first time around but as time goes it will get better and wounds will close; although some does always heal. for you at your age 11 months it a great deal of time and i'm proud of you for sticking that long. you should always be proud of yourself; sometimes love works and sometimes your love is made for someone else. For Example: My boyfriend and I started dating when we were fourteen and still are going strong and its been over four years now. it may be as it is for me; you find one and your meant to be or it just might taking a like digging and time on your side to find your man. either way you're doing great. just keep your head up, have faith.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you so much! And yes, this was definitely a personal experience. I know the journey of love is difficult, but hopefully I'll survive it and come out of it happy and in love. Haha, well, thanks again!

[Quiet Child]

your very welcome! (:

[bryandc15]

Through this piece I gradually have myself knowing you in the most easy way:) keep penning amandaaa:)

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Haha, thanks (: and is it Bryan..? I checked your profile, but it doesn't say.. Haha anyways, thanks :P

[bryandc15]

You're very welcome:)

[CreativeStroke]

Writing is the best way to think, vent and express ourselves. I firmly believe in that! Another nice piece Amanda.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you sooo much (:

[Courtney]

As I've before, writing is the best way to release feelings that one doesn't know how to express other wise. The more a poet pours out there feelings, whether of confusion or anger it makes for a better poem. Which is why I enjoyed this emotional write. Very nice work.

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Yes, I also believe that to be true. Thank you, Courtney (:

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Amanda, this is so sad. You two were together for eleven months? Wow! That's a long time. You're only 13, correct? Well, at your age guys aren't usually committed to their girlfriends for a long time period. For example: I didn't realize once I was dating a 14 year old and he said that he wanted to break-up because he couldn't stay in long relationships. At our age, no one wants to be tied down to one person. You want change and to be with other people. The longest relationship I have been in was for five months and the best time of my life too, though that was back in the 7th grade too. Heartbreak isn't the best thing to experience. Our hearts can't steadily give away to every person we meet because we won't have any left for the one we want to be with. That's not fair for them either.
"Why can't love be perfect?" --Such a wonderful question to ask. I have asked the same, but now I am glad that it isn't perfect. Love is full of suprises. If love was perfect, we wouldn't learn from our mistakes which is what God intends for us to do.
"It's not that I don't know how,
It's just that I make mistakes,"--Girl, everyone makes mistakes. In relationships, it's not person's fault it's both.

"I have so many questions,
Answers are nowhere to be found,
Kind of like my love...
Who vanished without a sound." --If we had answers for everything, we all would be know-it-alls and you talk about more fights then :D

Beautiful write!

Ashley Rivers-Dream BIG and you'll win BIG ;)

[Balkaran Sidhu]

good write ....

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you..

[babygirl]

I really like it nice write

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thanks!

[Angelic_Dreamer]

This was a great yet pensive piece of poetry. You really put all your benevolence and soul into this piece and it just calls out to me saying that I don't know what I did wrong. I'm desperate for your love and now it all comes crashing down? I find that very muddle of him to do that to you. But all you can do about this is... well try to forget about it.Please?

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Thank you! And to tell you the truth, this is the first time I've truly had my heart broken.. I don't think I'll ever forget about it :/ all I can do is move on, and that I will definitely do everything I can to do.

[Angelic_Dreamer]

Yeah ur rite I know it will be hard to move on but hey sometimes u do. Ik this is a little not on the subject of being heartbroken but when u were down about the heartbreak, were some of the songs by 1D?

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Haha, a couple. I kinda have songs by everyone, anything to do with heartbreak or whatever other mood I happen to be feeling.

[Angelic_Dreamer]

Oh same with me like rite now I'm listening to change my mind by 1D

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Gotcha, hahah.

[Angelic_Dreamer]

haha