Money problems and depression

I'm already starting to buy stuff for school and struggling with missing my boyfriend we live pretty far away from each other so I don't see him often. This is just a rant out of all of that.

Falling

That’s how I feel

I want to go home

But it seems so far away

Time stands still

Money starts to disappear

As I try to rise

Hope

Pretend I’m fine

Not afraid

Not sad

Because I’m not home

Because he is not here

College drains your money

When you’re only trying to be

What will make you happy

Rich

America right

Making us work

Till we are 60

To pay it off

And yet

Even with the help

I still have to pay

500 for books

500 hundred for supplies

And 500 more for school

Financial aid didn’t cover it all

But I’m finally going home

Seeing him more than once a month

Hoping to be happier 

As my bank account dwindles away