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In hiding

My name is Amanda and this is my first time wrting here, I honestly don't know why i'm even doing this but hopefully it will help me get some sleep after. I'm 24 years old and suffer from depression ( like almost every other American.) My depression has been getting worse these past few months because I have been lying to myself and everyone around me. I am a lesbian trying to be straight for my family, I want to make life easier for them; sadly it is not helping anyone, they think I am happy and I am trying not to explode. I look at myself and I do not recoginize the girl looking back at me, I have never been one lie or to hide myself. Somehow I have went back into the closest and I can not for the life of me find my way back out.

Author's Note

up late with to much on my mind.

Reviews

[613]

I am so sorry you're going through this. I hope things turn around for you!

- Brittney

[Dawn]

I am gay too, so I can relate. People have a lot of misconceptions about it.
If you ever want a friend I would love to be one. :)

[Amanda Marie]

Thank you, I would love to be your friend.