The Breath of Life

A song I wrote about my struggles.

I don't know if I am me and 

You don't know if you are you and

We don't know if we are us and

Maybe there's not any truth but 

One day just maybe we will find

Peace and harmony and maybe

We will fall in love and live each 

Day like it's our last don't give up 

But I know that's wishful thinking 

My will to live's slowly fading

Life's simply not entertaining

I'm not worth the cost of living

However I will stay headstrong

I'll never stop 'til I am gone

No one will tell me that I can't 

In death I'll be a revenant

Even though I cannot breathe and

Even without inner peace the

Breath of Life flows within me 'tis

An eternal melody or

So I would say but I'm dying

Fading away like the lightning

Fiercely displaying my power

Gravely mistaken; A coward

Running away never to be

Seen again in the same light and

Never returning to greatness

Never relearning confidence

I'm merely a former shadow

Of myself when I had no doubts

Nothing to fear or to lose and

When I had freedom to choose my

Own path I'm walking but now the

Curtain falls with my last bow the

Cheering has turned into silence

Approval no more gives guidance

Furthermore I do not think that

I can survive in this way so

I'll point a gun at my head I'm

Ready to dance with the dead but

I still want to keep on living

I've just lost all hope of winning

This great battle I am waging

To rid myself of depressing

Thoughts in my head; They are rampant

I'm worthless. I'm nothing. I'm dead

Inside and outside I've put up 

A façade of some happy face

Smiling at everyone they can't

Understand I'm coming undone

I do not know how to share my

Feelings about this to someone

That could possibly help me get

Through this pain and then show me the

Light at the end of the tunnel

Reaching out is such a struggle

Maybe there is still a glimmer 

Of hope that my life is worth more

Than what I have been believing

Do you think I should keep fighting

If so then I'll again sing the

Songs of new life and of peace but

If not then I'll again leave and

Disappear eternally will

Anyone notice that I'm gone

Or will they say that nothing's wrong

I don't wish to be forgotten

My legacy won't be rotten

On that note I have decided

That my life will end as righteous

As such I push even further

Beyond my limits to fervor

My will has not yet been broken

Ever so weak and a token

Of the battle of the great war

Raging on in my mind so far

You need not worry about me

I'll find a way and then you'll see

That I am capable of great

Things this is goodbye for now friends

Author's Note

Intended to be sung on a single breath, it is very difficult for me, as it is quite long, coupled with the fact I suffer from severe asthma, and cannot take such deep breaths.

I do not know if I'll ever be able to perform it myself.

Since the performer of the song does not get a chance to pause, it is written out in such a way as to reflect that.

Reviews

[Vertigo Cat1111]

That's a really, really cool idea! Besides that, the way you found a way to put your pain into such beautiful words and art is amazing. I really love it and it's hard for me to pick a favorite line, but after rereading this several times... 'Maybe there is still a glimmer, Of hope that my life is worth more, Then what I have been believing, Do you think I should keep fighting?'

It was very hard for me to pick, though, because I loved the whole thing, it was truly beautiful. And might I add, I laughed at your profile picture. That's how so many writers feel... just writing... 'The'.
Lol, please keep writing, this was obviously deeply written from the heart, and it was amazing.

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Thank you.
Personally I never thought it was that great but what do I know? A person is always their worst critic I suppose.