No Sleep

I lay here in the dark, the flashing light

And faint sound of the TV in the background.

Also, the muffled sound of you, awake.

So tired, yet I cannot sleep.

Thoughts, a million little thoughts,

Running through my head.

What are you doing? I wonder…

Alone in that room, while I lay here

Longing to be near you-

Wishing I knew how you felt.

Alone in bed, I am left to fall asleep,

Lonely, feeling uneasy-

Wish you were here next to me.

The minutes pass and turn to hours.

My eyes wandering through the darkness,

I can’t rest, I can’t possibly sleep.

What’s that? You call my name.

You call me to come, then push me away.

Mixed messages, mixed emotions.

Irritation, aggravation in your eyes,

In your voice. But why?

Why do suddenly feel this way towards me,

You push then pull, then push me again.

Is my mere presence that annoys you, or

Are you hiding something,

something that would hurt me?

Why, sometimes do you deny me?

Back to bed, alone once again.

In the bitter, dark room without you,

I wait.

Until you finally come, but

with what done? I can’t get it out of my head.

You lay next to me, your head hit’s the pillow-

You are instantly asleep…

I am still awake.

Wondering, pondering, thinking……listening

To the sound of your breath.

Reviews

[Winter McPherson]

Oh the heartbreak of it all. You've captured the push and pull of romance and rejection. Frankly, if he's your boyfriend - I'd get someone else, why live with that?

One lil' typo - "Why do suddenly feel this way towards me," I think you meant "Why do you suddenly feel this way..."

Very raw and real....

[Matthew Kult]

Alone, even with a body next to you. Sad, and meaningful. You expressed emotions very well and was able to keep it within a good flow. Very well done.

[John A Common]

This one is really good Lauren and welcome to wc.

[Joe]

This was powerful. Well done.

[just is]

So very true here, I really like this, When this happens it's time to wonder who is being true and who is playing. Well written write here can feel the emotions.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

When a loved one begins to act strange you can't help but wonder what is going on.. a brilliant display of mixed emotions and thoughts when love takes a strange turn.