healed loving

word vomit again so that i can slowly shift to writing to express myself instead of bottling it in.

what would love feel like when you're healed?
even as kids we were faced with trauma,
yet the love then felt as pure as innocence.
do we ever get to feel love fully?

how will it taste?
will it be a cup of coffee on a rainy day?
will it be the first bite after starving?
i hope it tastes like that one candy.

how will it feel?
like a weighted blanket while you sleep?
maybe a cold shower after a blistering day?
i hope it feels like being carried to your bed when you fell asleep on the couch.

i need to stop here before i wander too deep
if I don't progress in healing
this question will only be a dream:
how will healed loving feel?