Ch. 2 My Mind's Passage

My hands are shaking uncontrollably, sweat trickling down the side of my face. My eyes are burning, and in that lays the deep desire and the need to cry. Followed by that,  is the dryness stuck in my throat, where every breathe I take, is merely a gasp for air. My lips are bleeding, caked blood mixed with salty sweat and thick saliva burn the cuts. My mind, is no where in this vicinity, this area, this frame of mind. My mind is wandering again, slowly through different lanes of life, testing out where it may belong. My body is screaming, for to ease the pain, my mind is trying to find the one place I belong, where I shall remain forever, possibly with my hands locked in his. If not...I can't garuntee what else will be in store for me, but death itself.

 

Soft hands run over my scabbed lips, now perfect in whatever preforated nightmare I am having. A warm breathe aches on my neck, while romantic words slip into my ear. A smile spreads on my face, now where his hands are, and my eyes no longer burn with the need to drown. His eyes, his baby blue eyes, are staring into mine. I can feel his soul create a bond with my own, one that shan't ever be broken, so long as we both live. I can't breathe when he is staring at me like this, his own eyes full of wonder and love, the kind I would never be able to repay. I find myself smiling again, as he leans closer. I am thinking that he's going for this kiss, but this man I know, I remember the way his lips fit mine, and my before broken heart yearns for the wholeness this kiss will cede. His hands are tilting my chin up now, he smiles slightly, and his delicate lips find mine, and everything that has ever happened has vanished. I am whole now, and I know what it feels like to love.

 

But now, I know what it feels like to want to love, to need to love, but to know that it won't happen. At least not like the way I love this man, the way I always shall. My heart is merely a wound with many many bandages. I still dream of his soft hands entangling in my own, and where I felt nothing less than complete. But I am only now driving myself to insanity, because that which I love, which I yearn for, and need more than anything else in the world, in inexplainably out of my reach, forever..for he told me and I recall, he could easily promise that he shan't love me anymore, than that of a dear friend...And when told this, I cried. I cried until I fell asleep.

 

 

Reviews

[Emily :)]

Oh. My. God.

I got chills.

That was amazing!!!!! :)