Ch. 1 Rediscovery

I bit my lip, twittling my thumbs together, thinking of his old smooth ash blonde hair. I knew possibilities were endless, when I allowed my mind to wander about him the way it did. But that was the thing, it shouldn't be wandering, at least not like it used to. My mind always concieved these impossible, incoherent, unrelative thoughts, that it should not be thinking.

 

The sad part of this misconception was, this always happened, when another was involved, whether it was with him, or with myself, and I hated it. I could never be happy, and I could never control these sick urges I had. I could never ease the deep pain that associated with thinking about this man, nor could I ever make him happy enough if we were to dwell together forever.

 

Ha, I laugh at myself. Forver... Those words were awkward enough thought than said out loud. Once upon a time I believed in forever. The kind that ended with, 'I do's and 'I love you's, and the famous words 'Till Death Do Us Part'. But then again, I never believed in such romantic ideality, because never had it once existed for me. So who was I, to take that oportunity away from anyone else? Whether it be the man I am with now..or the man that I've so subcounsciously and consciously loved for years on end. Only the world knows, only fate knows, but fate be damned, for I shan't believe in something that has gotten me nowhere.

 

Everything happens for a reason...When can I find out where those words fit true?

Reviews

okay,
3rd paragraph, second sentence. *forver *forEver
over all i thought this was really good.
although, i think the flow could be better.
and you're using words like shant, which dont fit to well with its modern writing style.
the few times that you used words like that it seemed a tad bit awkward.
i actually really liked the idea and overall piece though.

[Last Lying Look]

This was awesome. I can't wait to read more!
"Everything happens for a reason." is one of my favorites quotes.
Sometimes I believe in it and sometimes I don't.
Keep up the great work!

-Elissa :)

[Emily :)]

Alright.
I'm gonna be honest.

That was wicked good!

Haha, seriously.
You totally left me wanting more!!!

Keep it up!