Becoming free.

“You said you would never leave!” My voice had cracked, and tears had rolled out of my eyes.

“I know, but this isn’t my fault! You and I… we’re not meant for each other. We never were. We’re from two different worlds.” You had let out a fake laugh at the word different.

“You told me that you loved me. You said you cared! I thought I mattered!” I cried out.

“You did matter. You did.” And with that, you walked away.

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Running out of my room, down the stairs, out into the cold winter night, the tears flow faster. The frigid air freezes the tears to my face, making it tight, but I couldn’t care less. It really is that cold out, but I honestly don’t care. Running down the hills, down to the water, my bare feet burn against the cold ground. I’m going to die of hypothermia, or at least with it. I can hear the thud on the ground, the grass being pounded back into the earth.

The water’s beautiful at night, the bright blues and blacks pounding and crashing against the solid stones, making the air shudder. I crawl onto the sharp rocks, trying to keep my balance. I slip, cutting my frozen foot open, but I don’t care. I can’t feel it; I’m not upset about it, so it doesn’t matter to me. I keep crawling, getting over to the highest rock, the one that juts out over the cold ocean. I slowly stand up on the large rock, the wind blowing my hair back, and freezing my face.

“Taylor, don’t move an inch!” Your voice bellows from behind me.

How you knew I was there I couldn’t explain, because I don’t know. You’re crawling across the rocks now, cursing at yourself for slipping. Suddenly you’re on my rock, my favorite rock.

“Taylor, you’re in a dress, you’re barefoot, and your foot is gushing blood… Come on, let’s go. I’ll walk you home.” You try to reason with me.

“No, I’m happy, I feel happy. I’m going to be free,” I stop and lower my voice to a whisper, “like a bird.”

You raise an eyebrow, walking towards me.

“You said you would always be here for me… but you left. So, I’m going to find someone else, somewhere else. Someone who won’t leave me.” I smiled, and took a step off of the rock.

The image of the moon and the stars burned into my mind, while I listened to you screaming for help. My body crashed against the water, and I heard a crack, something breaking, but I just smiled. I’m finally happy, I thought. And then my eyes fluttered shut.