My Life

What are you going to do with the rest of your life? What school are you thinking about going to? What are you going to get a degree in? what is you 10-year plan? How will you reach your goal? Yeah, I hear these questions almost every day, so does every other person at one point or another in their life. Well guess what, I have no freaking idea and know what who cares? I’m sixteen, I still have time, even if everyone else thinks I need to get my crap together.

                I have barely had any time to live, to learn who I really am. When I try to spread my wings, I get them cut off with the whole you are two young, you will have your moment, but when is that time? I start school at the age of 4, then its 10 years of elementary school. Followed by 4 years of high school then 4-10 years at university depending on the degree I’m going in for. And just when you think you are done and finally graduate you are forced to get a full-time job to pay for the bills.

Next thing you know you have spent 10 years trying to get a raise at the job you hate because you chose the wrong career for you, when you were to young to know what you really wanted. You wait for the weekend dreading Monday as it comes around. Next comes the husband and the family and don’t get me wrong that part doesn’t sound so bad, but the first few years you will need to be around the kids 24 hours of every day. Then comes the sport practices, dance recitals, school shows, then suddenly, they are all heading out to college finally leaving the house quiet.

But by then you realize you are 60 years old and you have never really lived. You never made any unforgettable memories or had your breath taken away from the most beautiful places in the world untraveled by most. Never had embarrassing stories that you will laugh about 20 years later, or met someone that made a difference in your life even though they are half way across the world. To me that sounds damn sad, when did that become the normal? When you say you want to take a year off after high school people tell you it’s a bad decision, to save your money and go to university so you can get a job faster. People have their minds set this way and they don’t think outside the box. Just live life by waiting to get to the next pit stop, never stopping and enjoying the journey. Its like their world is black and white and they think money and fame will make it colourful again, that it will bring them happiness. Little do they know that no matter the pay check, or how many people know their name they will never be happy unless they make the choice to be. It’s the little things in life that bring us the most joy, or maybe that’s just my naïve mind conceiving me again.

No one ever takes what teenagers say serious but what if our opinions are what it takes to make a change in the world? No one wants to change what they see or their opinions on things, because that’s what they have grown up learning. But as we grow I see my generation following right behind. I think its in these years that we start to realize somethings about the world and its now that we have the want to make a difference. We have a voice that we want heard but we don’t have the power to people hear. We could shout it to the world and not one head will turn to look at us, for we are just teenagers being teenagers. As we grow we lose the will to make a difference and we don’t ever reach the potential we could. We forget what we were fighting for in the first place, but I don’t want to lose what I learned and realized as a teenager. So here is my journal on what I learn as I learn them. I’m not saying I’m going to change the world or anything. Far from that, most of what I learn is just stupid stuff on the way. But if you ever think you are alone maybe reading this will show you that you aren’t weird that im thinking and wondering the same thing.

It may not be the right answers or what you think but hey its my story after all. Maybe life is not as hard as we think, or maybe it is, but here is a teenager’s view of the life and maybe you will learn something but if you got any tips on life please let me know. you might save me a few tumbles of my own. Trust me when I say this life does not go smoothly all the time but the best lessons come from the greatest falls. Now here is where my journey begins.