sinkingA Poem by Allie EsoraAyo.. maybe I do need a life preserver..I don’t feel like shattered glass or sharp or shiny. My heart, akin to scrap metal. An old dull soup can, sinks deeper and deeper into the ocean the pressure, crushing, slowly slowly. Soon the can will have no room inside it for anything but, Savage current and will sink faster and faster until it hits the bottom and nobody will ever see it again. I can almost feel it-- so, so heavy, full of seawater and sand, edges crinkled and embedded sunken into my skin, just shrapnel impaled puffy in the center of my chest, pressing against my back on the opposite side like a child’s finger stretching and ripping through plastic wrap. But from a tin can, has been pulled an iron bar, and instead of four pounds it’s forty-five and my heart isn’t what’s sinking but my entire body and I don’t have the strength to move my legs and my nose is barely poking above the water and with every wave my throat burns and I choke and grow eternally heavier and wonder how is this even possible and plead, WAS LIFE EVER WORTH THIS? Is a future worth this? And if somebody looks at me curiously Or asks if I’m alright, from my lungs I squeeze out a little more air and bubble, “Yep! Don’t mind me, haha I’m just a lousy swimmer, but I’ll make it to shore like anyone else.” And they float by, chuckle or roll their eyes or look on in amazement like, “Wow, I could never succeed if I tried doing it your way.” AND of course you couldn’t, I CAN’T, I’M NOT doing it-- why do you think I’m so different from you? Please, please, please I need help. why can’t you see that I’m drowning I’m drowning I’m drowning. © 2022 Allie EsoraAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on January 20, 2022 Last Updated on March 4, 2022 Tags: depression, anxiety, heaviness, exhaustion, desperation, burnout, ocean, sea, fishing, nautical, salty AuthorAllie EsoraAustin, TXAboutI’m very new, but I’ve found that writing poetry has been a really positive outlet for me. I haven’t shared my work with anyone, and honestly I’d be scared to show it to someon.. more..Writing
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