Mosaic ManA Story by Laz K.Dr. Benoit’s office had the elevated, sacred air of a church, and
the nervous, uneasy, vibrating silence of a concert hall that just closed its
doors after a concerto. The thick, dark brown wall panels and the heavy drapes
over the windows muted the noise of the busy street below. The grandfather
clock in the corner was a giant metronome tapping out a steady, soothing
rhythm. The monotony of the endless rows of neatly arranged books on the
shelves was syncopated by wooden masks, curious rocks, photographs, and
statuettes of various deities. Every time Ezra entered the office, the doctor was scribbling in
his ledger. It was a sort of ritual that Ezra found theatrical and annoying at
first, but later got used to and came to enjoy. He didn’t mind the few minutes
of silence as his wandering eyes never seemed to get enough of the details of
the leather-bound books, the grotesque masks, and the photographs. When Dr.
Benoit finished, he’d lean back in his chair, look up, point Ezra to the couch,
lock his hands on top of his bulging belly, and say, “How are you feeling
today, Mr. Irwin?” “The older I get, the less
I know who I am. I am lost, lost.” “Don’t be impatient. You’ve run into a dark forest and lost your
way. Now, we just have to trace your steps back. But, the mind is an infinite
wilderness indeed. Sometimes, it’s easier to stop searching for the way out, or
the way back. The past, as you remember it, does not exist anymore, and
therefore it is impossible to find. Sometimes it is necessary to make a
clearing in the woods and to build a new world right where you happen to find
yourself.” Dr. Benoit loved these analogies and metaphors. They reminded Ezra
of his childhood when his mother used to read bedtime stories to him. “Are you eating well, Ezra? Do you get enough sleep?” Dr. Benoit wouldn’t wait for an answer but press a button on his
desk. His secretary would appear shortly carrying a silver tray. “Have a biscuit
and some tea, Mr. Irwin,” she’d say with a smile and leave. This was usually
the point where Ezra’s daydreaming ended. He never carried the scene any
further. He couldn’t. It was usually around this time that the train taking him
to town every morning screeched to a halt with a jolt. Ezra would open his
eyes, stiffen his face, reach for his briefcase and pretend that he knew what
he was doing and why. The part about not eating or sleeping was true. And there was
something else he didn’t dare mention to Dr. Benoit. “He’d get upset; he’d call
for his secretary, and then she’d get upset, and then they’d probably call an
ambulance. That’s what they’d do, I know,” Ezra muttered to himself while
walking down the platform and to his bus stop. People sometimes gave him looks,
but he didn’t mind. They were not real; not like Dr. Benoit and his secretary. “A small bump on the skin is nothing to fuss about,” Ezra would
say out loud while waiting for his bus. People would slowly slide away from
him, to stand a few feet apart. The back of Ezra’s left hand was red already,
and he couldn’t help scratching it. The only thing that made this skin
condition different was the fact that the bump on the back of Ezra’s hand was
shaped like a perfect square. Before his condition started, Ezra had a life. He was one of the
numberless, nameless, faceless multitudes that moved toward the city day after
day with a purpose. They all seemed so sure, confident and determined to do
whatever it was they had to do. Ezra got dressed and got on the train every
morning and he felt that he belonged. Then, somewhere along the line, he became
as hollow and light as a balloon. He stopped daydreaming about Dr. Benoit, and he spent his days in
an imaginary park where children had fun with the same sort of self-assured,
unquestioning attitude as the adults who play their games in the city. These
imaginings always ended the same way: after a long day at the park a child is
being carried home. His eyelids are getting heavier and heavier, his head is
sinking lower and lower till his chin touches his rhythmically rising and
falling chest. His fingers relax, his grip on the string of the balloon loosens,
and the balloon begins to float, and rise toward the sky where it disappears
like a sinking boat that’s swallowed up by the sea. More of the same, perfectly angled square-shaped bumps appeared
next to the first one. As the discomfort, the itching and the pain grew, the
fantasies got wilder. Ezra saw howling, ravenous wolves tearing each other to
bloody pieces, and cats scratching and clawing their own eyes out. After about
a week of this, the neighbors called the police and an ambulance to deal with
the deranged, screaming man in flat 207. After banging on the door for half an hour in vain, the cops broke
in. They found a man, or something that looked like a man, on the floor in the
living room. It was alive, they concluded, as it had shallow, rapid breathing.
The medics tried to take some tests, but touching the body was like touching a
marble statue. When they examined it more closely, they gasped in horror. The
skin was torn off from most of the left hand and arm, parts of the torso, as
well as the right thigh. Under the skin was something that looked like the
limbs of a statue made of mosaic. It took four cops to lift and carry the body
to the ambulance. A special OR in the nearest hospital was prepped, and a team of
experts was assembled. Besides the doctors and nurses, the team included
someone from the local museum. News got out, and the papers were calling the
patient the “Mosaic Man.” There wasn’t much anyone could do to help. The
“Mosaic Man” was breathing, although just barely. The mosaic tiles could not be
penetrated by needles, the man himself was unconscious, and so they couldn’t
talk to him. Eventually, someone suggested that the whole scene resembled a snake
shredding its skin. This was considered, and the medical team decided that they
would carefully try to remove the remaining human skin from the body of the
“Mosaic Man.” The doctors started out tentatively, and noted that with every
inch of the tiles that they uncovered, the “Mosaic Man” became more radiant,
and his breathing normalized. They sped up the process, and within a week, they
helped “Mosaic Man” shed all of his old skin. There was nothing more for them
to do, so they handed the patient over to the man from the museum. The old professor looked at the “Mosaic Man” as he would look at any
other artifact, trying to uncover its story, purpose, and meaning. “Objects that exist by nature have their origin in themselves, whereas those that
exist by craft have their origin in the craftsperson - specifically, in the form
of the thing as it exists in the mind of the maker,” he’d say. After studying
each mosaic piece meticulously, he concluded that the “Mosaic Man” was like an
artifact that had been created over a very long period of time by several
artists. The material of the tiles differed: some were clay, others iron,
bronze, silver or gold. Some were decorated with intricate carvings or
paintings, while others were flat, uniform, colorless, and dull. Some dated
from millennia before, while others were very recent. He even found some pieces
that were made of plastic. “The ‘Mosaic Man’ is a living, breathing
representation of the history of mankind itself. It is…He is a colorful quilt, a mixture of various, unknown influences
and sources telling us a story that we may never completely comprehend. However,
…” “Mr. Irwin, Dr. Benoit will see you now,” the
elderly secretary said waking Ezra from his reverie. “Ezra, why don’t you tell me why you think you
need therapy,” Dr. Benoit began. “The older I get, the less I know who I am. I am lost, lost.” © 2021 Laz K. |
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