One Love. Our Love

A Story by Amanda Rose

The unexpected love I always wanted

Here I was young, wild, and free. I had been through a lot for my age, I wasn't looking for anyone romantically. I was just living the life as it came.. And then I seen you one day come through the drive thru of my fast food job place something about those eyes of yours that locked with mine for like 5 seconds and the way you was making giggly small talk with the two little smiling children in the back seat. I started packing your food order frantically and felt so nervous all of the sudden, My chest felt heavy and my palms became sweaty. I didn't even know why, I grabbed two extra cookies for the kiddos and threw them into the bag, maybe that will make up for me taking so long for your order I though. I swiftly handed you the bag of food and tell you I threw some cookies in there for you. You thanked me as if I handed you a bag of money. As you went on your way I went back to work as if it never happened. I didn't understand why I felt that way over just coming into contact with you, I knew of you I had actually met you a couple of times but not enough for you to remember me. Later that night I got home and quickly searched you on social media, I wanted to know more about you I found your profile and was shocked to find you were "single" before I knew it I sent you a friend request...Boom! Instantly you accepted my heart dropped like it was some big deal...I just went on about my night trying to avoid thinking more into just some guy buying fast food at my work that I just so happened to have locked eyes with. Oh you're just being friendly because I gave you extra cookies with your meal...As I'm laying bed almost asleep and I hear "Pa Ting" on my phone, me thinking it's too late for anyone to be messaging me..something has to be wrong..I quickly check my phone to find it's you...saying hello ....my heart dropped I sat straight up in the bed wide awake like a kid in a candy store..I tell myself "okay calm down, he just said 'hey'. I reply and we began this long conversation out of random things until I fell asleep with my phone in my hand. We had exchanged phone numbers and added one another on snapchat a picture messaging app that everyone uses. The next morning we talked on and off with texting but never skipped a beat on our long conversations. As a few days passed I hadn't heard from you much and I didn't want to scare you away that soon ..I began to worry if I had said something wrong.. I go onto work to face the day... At the end of my shift I check my phone before heading home, still nothing from you..hmmm....I head on home late at night and I am beyond tired from the day..I get home and my mom insist that we get out of the house for a bit. I hadn't freshened up I just changed clothes from work and out the door we went, we made our way to an old friends house I walk into the door and there you are playing the drums in the corner...My heart started beating fast I'm thinking "He plays drums too!? I should just walk back out and go home and hide..." I finally sat down at the table and soon enough you get up from playing the drums when the song is over and walk straight to me "Well Hey, What's up?" I sat there lifeless for a second. We made small talk through out the night as everyone started to head home so did I. A few more days pass and I hadn't heard much from you. As I'm scrolling through social media I see that you posted on snapchat story.. "Waffle king run anyone?" I immediately sent you one back and said "I want some food, I'll go" I really don't care much for waffle king but I wanted to get to know you better as if you seemed to be a mystery to me. We decided to meet at a local place to ride the waffle king together. Of course nervous me said "we can take my car I'll drive!" there we went, as I'm driving you spark conversation I try to keep my eyes on the road wondering if I should turn the radio on or if I should just giggle along to what your saying.. We see that Krystals is open and decide to eat there as we both discovered neither of us really cared for Waffle house anyway...We didn't really order much to eat but just sat there for a few hours chit chatting it was so fun to me. As the night started getting later we had head back to your car.. I put in my matchbox twenty CD as I felt we both got scared of the chemistry we had flowing, You started singing along to the songs playing on my CD..We made little smiles at each other and I put my eyes back on the road.. As we pull into the parking lot to your car you thanked me for the nice night of chatter and go on your way. You told me you will text me when you make it home safe...
I heard no word from you for 2 days. At this time I was worried but okay with it as I had become scared to get to close to you. Suddenly, My phone rings..it's you. Of course I'm not answering you've ignored me for 3 days! NO way!! Phone stops ringing....me thinking "I should've answered his call, Dang it!" You text me, "Hey, my phone has been broken sorry I haven't been able to talk...But would you want to go with me tonight and me some of my close friends" I sat there on my couch not knowing what to say back.. "Um, yeah Sure!" We go and I meet all of your awesome friends, We played a game of card against humanity, it got to late for us to drive home so we spent the night there. The next morning we both had to work, we wake up late and rush to get back to your car and barely even get to talk. I rush off to work and don't think much of it. You later ask if I want to come down to your house and watch a movie when my shift is over....of course I do. I ask for directions to your house and then when the time came I chickened out. I told you I had to work late and couldn't make it. I got scared and gave you the cold shoulder for a few days. You invite me down for a movie again still not giving up or letting me running off. I finally gave in.. I traveled on this little country road for what felt like forever. Finally my GPS says "your destination is on the right" My heart started beating faster, I get out of my car take a deep breath and walk towards the door. As I look up there you are standing in your pjs, "ready to watch a movie" you said. We go inside and I sit at least 3 feet away from you hesitant about getting close to you..We are Sitting there as the movie starts you slide over close to me and we began watching the movie. I didn't understand why you made my heart skip a beat overtime you looked at me or even got close to me. We ended up talking about random things to calm both us down from being so nervous, it was getting late I then acted as if I just had to get home. Nervously you offer for me to crash at your place. I try to make excuses but I just felt right at home and decided to stay.. As the morning light came into your bedroom window I woke up and you are just laying there looking at me like I am some type of jewel.. I look at you "why didn't you wake me" I said.. you looked at me smiling and say "You was sleeping so good and looked so beautiful I didn't want to bother you" I look at you like you're crazy "umm thanks?" I freak out and think up of some type of story "Uhh I gotta go for a run at the park before I go get my nephew for the day" Grabbing my keys and out the door I go...I'm driving and thinking to myself "I really just needed to brush my teeth and have some coffee " and "did he really try to say I looked beautiful sleeping with my mouth wide open, yeah right!!" I go on with my day and as time passes we grew closer and closer. Both of us had been through a world of heartbreak shortly before we had started talking. We was in a constant battle of running away or choosing to stay. A few months went by we were starting to fall in love...but wait remember the two smiling children in the back seat of the car that day? Yeah, it's time to meet them! The day approached that it was time to meet the kids! Oh, I was so nervous, thinking "what if they don't like me" but then a few hours later I found myself playing with play dough at the table with your sweet 5 year old little girl and learning how to build a robot with your genius 10 year old boy... I was lost in the moment not knowing I was already hooked on as if my heart stayed there every time I had to head home. Things had gotten pretty serious with the time that had passed.. I knew then it was time to tell you something about my self that you wasn't aware of... I was so scared to tell you as I waited and put it off as long as I could, I didn't want you thinking I was any less of a woman or that I came with big complications. It was time to finally tell you that I was sick. I sat down with you one evening on your couch and told you we needed to talk. You looked as if I was going to tell you I robbed a bank or something but it was a little bit different than something like that. I explained to you that before we got any more serious than we already was I wanted you to know that I had several health issues and wanted you to be aware of them. At first, I figured you would tell me we couldn't be together or just feel pity on me I didn't want none of that to happen. Good thing was I was at the back end of my sickness. I only had one or two more Surgeries left and only one more round of chemo and radiation therepy to go. After explaining everything to you. You sighed with relieve and said " I thought you was breaking up with me" You then held me close and told me that you would be there to help me in anyway you could. I remember you telling me " We will beat this thing together" As my eyes filled with tears I knew then you had to be some kind of special. I had my last small procedure done and was resting at home. I didn't feel well and had been vomiting all day, You called me to see if I needed anything while you was nearby, I just needed you. But of course, I didn't know how to say it or tell you. I just laid there on the phone with you and started to cry. You ask "Is something wrong?" I replied "I just don't feel well, but I don't need anything" I laid there as we got off the phone and tried to rest I just couldn't get comfortable and then I finally stopped being stubborn decided to call you back to talk. And then it was like you read my mind...you said to me "get shoes on, just stay in your pajamas..me and the kids will be there to get you soon" and you hung up. A few short minutes later, you come to the door. You helped me to the car, as I felt so bad as if I didn't want to put my problems on you but I also felt so much better knowing you were beside for that moment. I finally was able to rest on your couch. You took care of me, you made sure I ate, and even made sure I took my medicine. I didn't realize that months had flew by and you still got up took care of me, you went to work, made sure I was okay and feeling well, took care of your kids and still managed to make time for everything else in between. I started getting better, sick days became less, my hair had gotten thicker like before and I even began to be able to work more. You still made sure I took vitamins, ate healthy, stayed active and most of all made sure I was loved. When I say that you saved me I mean it. You didn't let me give up that fight. That's how I knew you were the one I always dreamed of. In those fairytales, ya know. You kept me strong and helped me beat cancer, when you didn't have too. I remember thinking to myself "so this is what love feels like". It was summer time, I was finally able to be in the sunshine! We spent time swimming, taking the kids to the park, ya know summer things. I met some of your family along the way. We even went to your parents house to swim in the pool. Boy, Was I nervous about that one. Hoping and Praying they would like me. Before I knew it you was meeting my family, which means it was time to meet my dad..as his approval means a lot to me I was so scared to wonder how it would go...you and my dad got along and talked as if you had known each other forever. As I'm watching from a distance hoping it's going well. I see the man of my dreams having what looks like a good conversation with my father. In that moment the earth stood still for me. Wait, my dad actually likes you? "Now, I'm really scared! But hey, what's not to love about you? About a week later, still dating of course, we see one another everyday, and then you tell me you want to talk to me about something, you ask me to move in with you. Uh Oh! You want me to do what? It was scary the thought of moving in with this man I've fallen in love with....That's a big step. By then I thought "Why wouldn't I?" ....I know a lot of people frown upon the whole living together before marriage and all that...but really this time it's 2015 people. When you love someone you should want to be by there side every single day and lay down beside them every single night, right? So here I go, packing my things. I moved in! The kids seemed just as happy about it as I did. Everything just felt so right, but I did notice few things needed a little bit of a homey touch...I began to decorate, hanging some photos on the wall and organizing things. After all you was a single dad with 2 kids can't really expect you to give a home the womans touch. *giggles* Time passed by so fast and I felt as if I've been living here forever, this place is my home, this is really my life. You are a great man and you have 2 wonderful kids...Now, we have had our far share of disagreements, struggles and arguments. Trust me it's never easy. But that's just it nothing in this world worth having comes easy, right?

We have now been together a little over 2 years and I still look at you wondering if this is just a dream. I still get excited when you come through the door after working all day. I hope that anyone reading this knows that when you least expect it love will find you and it will be real. It's not easy but it's worth it. When you've found the one, you will feel it. So just buckle up and enjoy the ride together!