Toxic

Why would I run for something destructive, 

when it was you,

who spread out the poison?

How could I manage 

this twisted attempt 

to console myself, 

when it was you 

who pushed me over the edge?

Time and again.

I reach for the embers and 

press them to my lips, 

I might as well admit

I am hopelessly addicted...

Reviews

[Jak-Mun]

In some form or another we all come face to face with a dependency to something. I could debate the subject endlessly, infinitely, knowing all too familiar the painful blows of addiction.
Yet you captured the surrealism in a fashion of a couple stanzas.
That is deserving of applause right there.
No excuses
No rationalization,
Just primal fear, and acceptance.. the ultimate first step in overcoming.
Well done. I hope these vexatious contingencies no longer plague you.
For that is true strength.
Moving work here. Glad i could read.

[Alisa Js]

Thank you. Each day is a new day, each day I grow stronger.

😎

[Antoñyo]

As potent as some lines here come across, "Time and again," makes this piece breathe life...for me.

Thanks for the share.

[Alisa Js]

Thank you! I will be by soon.

Alisa💫

[dan]

The poison of which you speak sounds like the knee-jerk reaction to a poisonous relationship. One can become hopelessly addicted to this relationship even knowing the harmful effects it can have. That's how a couple can be together 40+ years and not even speak to each other, staying together out of force of habit. This may not be what you meant but what I took from it. Either way, Alisa, this is an excellent write, bravo!! take care...dan

[Alisa Js]

Thank you for your insightful comments, wishing you a happy holiday season.

Alisa💫

[David Scott]

This is interesting. We look at a drug addict and blame them for their behaviors. We look at drugs and blame them for the drug addict...
So it is with relationships. We have elements of human interaction we are meant to crave. We are hard wired to need affection and connections. Yet out of healthy context, these internal systems work like poison and contaminate our lives.
Who is to blame? Ah... is this even a question worth answering?
Maybe we can become "hopefully addicted" and transform our relationships?
Very relatable poetry. Well done.

[Alisa Js]

Thank you, David.

Alisa💫

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i have been there, too...addicted to relationships i knew could kill me...but with reckless abandon, drank the poison.

powerful metaphor.

j.

[Alisa Js]

Thanks j,

I know, I know...and yet I continue....😱

[D Ruppert]

In todays society the trend seems to be, while we want to remove ourselves from a less than favorable environment, vowing never to return, yet still many do that very thing. For those who don't seem to want to guess you could say punish themselves for having gone through it to begin with. Your words are masterfully written, conveying your every thought, emotion. We're all addicted to something..might as well be love.

[Alisa Js]

Might as well, eh? Lol...wishing you well.

Alisa💫

[SquinklaPsyOps]

Beautifully composed and rendered! Lovely rhyming and flow. '...

[Alisa Js]

Thank you! I Will be by soon.

Alisa💫

[.]

-- ah... i know what this addiction is like a little too well... and i'm glad it's something i am able to detect and avoid quite effortlessly now... -- brilliantly expressed, alisa...

[Alisa Js]

I am happy for you serah, as for me...I continue to struggle, daily...😱

[.]

-- sorry to hear that, alisa... i hope you find your reservoir of resilience (within) soon... i've seen it in your poetry several times and i know it's waiting for you to find it...

[Alisa Js]

Thank you. My intellect knows better, yet my heart begs me to stay, to give it more time...even in the glaring face of reality... I know, I know, I know....

[.]

-- that's alright, sensitive alisa... take your time... never break your own heart... it's your most precious friend... if it needs time, be generous... :)

[Alisa Js]

Indeed...thank you for your kind thoughts😃

[.]

-- the privilege is all mine, sweet friend... :)

[DirectTangent]

Speaks to me of how we die, in little bits - "pushed me over the edge/time and again" - in relationships that can sap life but to which we addictively return. That is the nature, the allure and futility, of so many addictions.
Thank you for this.

[Alisa Js]

You are most welcome. Thank you for your your most perceptive comments. I will be by soon.

Alisa 💫

[Alisa Js]

Toxic relationships are the most challenging and draining, all at the same time, as the heart struggles and strains to reconcile any shard of what could be construed as a redeeming quality...😱

[DirectTangent]

Quite true. The heart may struggle mightily to find redeeming qualities on which to persevere in an otherwise calamitous relationship. It does so often willingly ignoring the cautions from the head. I haven't yet been able to figure out why the heart, perceptive in so many other ways, cannot see a way through to save itself.
You've written this well.

[Alisa Js]

Thank you!😃

[emme33]

This is so beautifully written... it creates such a familiar image in the reader's mind of toxic relationships, well done! :))))

[Alisa Js]

Thank you!

I will be by soon.

Alisa💫