Broken

I find you here

beside my every thought

I must confess, you never left

unspoken promises our bodies made

while making love

we didn't keep

and now, I grieve this emptiness

I never thought we'd stop

this,

us

you and me...

Reviews

[David Scott]

Are the promises broken? Really... "I find you here beside my every thought" tells me the tie will never be completely severed. Would you assume it is any different for the other? Actions and behaviors seldom correlate well with the psyche. Very often, we ignore or even hide from the deep soul connections we have made in life. Yet they always are with us, to haunt or bless, however we choose to use the energy...
IMO...
This feels like a tear I want to wipe away...
Tender and honest.

[Alisa Js]

Thank you again.

I think it's especially heartbreaking when two become three or more without consent or even knowledge of the initial two....

The memories remain, along with the pain of betrayal....

Alisa💫

[David Scott]

Thus the tears... Still, why a person would betray your trust and their own integrity is complicated. Betrayal does not negate love, it does violate "trust" and this is often irreparable.
You have my sympathies.

[Alisa Js]

Hello Alfonso,

Thank you for your comments and time.

Alisa

[Alfonso Espada]

Melancholy over what was once believed eternal touches a very deep chord in my heart.
Well expressed.
Thanks for sharing.

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~~ poetry cannot be more brutal and yet more beautiful than this... ~~ after an experience that is as crushing as this, one is shattered... and it takes a long time to heal...

[Alisa Js]

Aloha serah,

Thank you for your kind and understanding words and thoughts.
read moreAloha serah,

Thank you for your kind and understanding words and thoughts.

Sometimes I wonder if a heart has been badly broken, does it ever really heal? As fragments and flashes of that memory remain in my heart for all time and I find myself comparing others to him.

😞

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~~ well... i don't think scars vanish, dear alisa... ~~ i was in blinding pain for almost three years or maybe four but i'm here now... ~~ i guess we learn to cope better with the passage of time and informed insights into the psyche of the other person... ~~ as long as we see the other person as an "enemy" or someone who is "evil" or a "criminal"... we continue to have adversarial thoughts and those thoughts cause immense agony... at least that's what happened with me... ~~ things changed when i realized that the other person is less than me because of whatever reasons and is simply unable to understand where i'm at and where he's at... ~~ you see... there's no such thing as being on the same plane as someone else automatically... ~~ the important thing is to diagnose the gap in understand, expression and communication precisely... and then to diligently and meticulously bridge that gap... if the relationship is important enough... ~~ if, after all my efforts, i don't succeed, at least i'll have the peace of knowing i tried my best and left nothing to chance... ~~ i hope i'm making sense... if not, do let me know if you have questions...

[.]

* the gap in understanding

[Alisa Js]

Yes, it makes perfect sense. Each person is at their specific spot in this jouney called life...as we press our way forward, we do so with the emotional, psychological, and spiritual tools we are aware of. Some will be discarded and others we will learn to use as we continue onward.

😃

[.]

~~ true, true... but there are also people who have no tools, alisa... ~~ they're broken as children by abusive adults or abusive teenagers or abusive children... and they sleep-walk through life... even if they go through the ritual of a school and college education... and then they get brainwashed by toxic ideas... either by something that is advertised a lot or by someone who is in a position to influence them... and their life goes awry... ~~ such people are often excruciatingly quiet and don't reveal themselves easily... but once we find out that they are under-educated, we have to decide whether to help them cover the distance between under-education and education in the true sense of the word or to walk away... ~~ i didn't walk away because i myself was broken as a child... and can almost effortlessly recognize someone who has been through that experience even if that person is skilled in being secretive... ~~ that's why when i read your poetry... i can almost always see that i have been on both sides... ~~ i have been the insensitive person and i've been at the receiving end of insensitive behaviour...