Paranoia

does tradition still beckon

behind current venues of convenience

does honor still matter

in this age of relativism

it started in the back of his head

he knew something was different, but what

every where around hearing them

certain fragments and sounds of words

cha-cha,  rmph hmm

but where was the feeling, the genuine concern

he wondered at times if he'd lost his mind

or rather, actually

become more enlightened

could those levels of perception

really exist

tangled around tortured minds that twist

in ways only he could see and understand

perfectly.

while

roaming ancient thoughts from somewhere in time

they could be near the second red light

on the left lane

or behind the third car,

the one driving quite careful and much too slow

with the shade in back, 

wearing thick glasses

random thoughts filter through

on a dark-coded night

birds on a rooftop, the next yard over

sending signals to passing cars

upside down table with a red string attached

is surely a clue

answers to questions

anticipating...

Reviews

[Perdition]

And NOW we are going somewhere. Very cool..very good and the story sounds so quite familiar. Well that's it. Write from where you have been and from what you know and then dive into where you want to be.
Well done HI…nice to see a fire glowing~

[Alisa Js]

😎hmmmmmmm....familiar,eh?

I will reflect on that. Thank you for your time and comments...I am working on something waaaaaay different....I might even be shocked!


Catch up soon,

Alisa💫

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~~ ohhhhhhh... it's a fantastic piece... ~~ i remember how i used to imagine "messages from the universe" that simply did not exist... and i would link two completely unrelated things and imagine a pattern... and then compare one pattern with another pattern... and take decisions based on what i thought was reality... while i was completely delusional... ~~ and during that time... i became extremely superstitious... ~~ i remember my favourite coffee mug got chipped somehow and i thought it was a sign... a bad omen of some sort... and every time something bad happened... i would also feel cursed... ~~ paranoia is a crazy place for any mind to be in... and when one is paranoid... one never doubts one's sanity... ~~ it's like a stupor that doesn't feel like a stupor...

[Alisa Js]

Hello serah,

Yes, exactly.

I remember a lady who was shizophrenic, although at the time I didn't know that. Anyway, whenever I would visit, she would be in the middle of writing a twenty page letter to our mayor about thought machines the local university had in it's possession. She would know this, she told me... because she caught them trying to influence her mind with the waves from the machines...

She, too was super sensitive to any random 'sign'.... bird feather, phone call with only one wring, wind blowing in a certain direction, the way a piece of paper would fall, all that and more.

I thought at the time, she was merely eccentric... and had no idea she had a mental disorder.

I knew another woman who suffered from Alzheimer's and in the later stages, she saw things that weren't there.. heard noises only she could hear...was convinced someone would take her furniture out and put it back again before she returned from taking her dog for a walk...

... all of these are symptoms of paranoia...yet, all of them very real to each person.

I wonder sometimes about this reality.... and what actually is and isn't. It goes back to my theory of perception.

Starting in one's mind...and it goes out from there.

I am glad in your case you got to the point where you were able to discern properly.

Thank you for your time and thoughts...

Alisa ;-)

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~~ my privilege, alisa... ~~ pain is not in the mind... (though technically it might involve the process of a message being sent to the brain)... and the experience of pain is real... ~~ human beings are multidimensional... we're not just our minds... we have hearts... we have stories that involve others with hearts and minds... we have a social context... we have a cultural context... ~~ there are million things that add to our experiences, education and exposure to others... and the experiences that others have... ~~ where it all begins... is simply where it begins... ~~ i wouldn't be able to reduce everything to where it begins... ~~ if i did that, then all that would matter to me was where i was born... ~~ plus, i majored in history in my BA... so my basic training is not in reducing a human being's existence to one facet and one facet alone... ~~ to me, you or anyone else... is multi-dimensional... ~~ you bring an array of experiences to the table... ~~ i don't even know anything about where you were born or who your parents are... ~~ i see a multi-faceted person... who pursues excellence in poetic expression... and writes several exquisite images in just one post... ~~ reading your poems is like watching a film... it has several visuals... and each visual is painted with a lot of attention to detail... ~~ there's atmosphere in your poetry... and there's emotion... and skill... and also a sense of a journey... ~~ all of it may begin in your mind... but it's much, much more than just something which is only in your mind... your traverse the universe in your verse, dear alisa... i think i've been reading you since more than a year now... ~~ the mind may be the vessel or the vehicle... it's not all the ingredients or the journey...

[Alisa Js]

😃thank you, kind poetess for your insight and sensitivity. I do appreciate you and your time.read more😃thank you, kind poetess for your insight and sensitivity. I do appreciate you and your time.

Wishing you a happy everything from this side of the Pacific,

Alisa💫

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~~ thank you... and... you're very welcome, gifted dudette... :)

[ANTO]

Paranoia was useful...once

In the days to come it should be taken as read that everything we eat, say, think and do will be watched and recorded somewhere and such data will be useful to someone and as such a commodity to overtake gold and silver and frozen O.J. (a wee nod to Trading Places the movie there my friend - the first b***s I ever saw on TV).

Love the imagery - I think my satellite is just an old table top for the reception I get is blooming ridiculous.

This is your funnest write Alisa I.M.non-H.O.
Im glad I read it - it made me smile.
Aloha my dear Alisa
:)

[Alisa Js]

🐔 hello ANTO,

I'm glad I could bring a smile to you today....

Nice to read your thoughts.

Thank you for stopping by.

Alisa💫

[jacob erin-cilberto]

that genuine concern...is there basis for it?
paranoia is a strange thing....what is real and what isn't? do we have reason to doubt?
to we have reason to be scared of what is around us?

those conspiracies can really drive us crazy---make us think we are losing our minds...and even if we find there is good reason to wonder...we still start doubting ourselves.

love it.

[Alisa Js]

Sometimes I wonder if those who are paranoid are onto something we simply aren't aware of...yet.
read moreSometimes I wonder if those who are paranoid are onto something we simply aren't aware of...yet.
Thank you for your time and comments.

Alisa💫