Choices

it was in the second half of the third attempt

when the wall came down,

illusions of safety

splatters of comfort

lazy chats around some long ago summer fire in some far away space

gone.

without even a hint of good-bye

unfiltered exchanges slide verbal

deep set emotions surfaced, though afraid to be seen

faulty transmission, years in the making

dysfunction at best

there is no safe harbor

these steps are half-broken and crumbling

is this true madness?

when all roads lead to heaviness

regardless of how hard you try to realize

where is the welcome sign

that true sense of longing and cherish

they say it's about choices

choices, you say

what if 

what about

who cares, anyhow...

I'm almost at the point of not trying

this round

Author's Note

thoughts on a restless night...

Reviews

[ANTO]

The opener - reads like a mystery novel Alisa - instant hook !The enitre poem is replete with moving, bittersweetness - the apathy at the end is so sad. A relationship coasting - heading for the rocks.
Beautifully affecting Alisa - heartbreaking...

[Alisa Js]

Hello ANTO,

Thank you for stopping by.

Yes,it is indeed heartbreaking when the realization sinks in that what was once perceived of as safety and comfort was nothing more than a matchstick bridge over a flickering candle at best...😞

Alisa

[ANTO]

yeah when the blinkers are removed and the truth exposed - I see now
YVW Alisa - :)

[Alisa Js]

On the flip side, it is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all😍

In life, we take the bitter with the sweet, for if we have never tasted the bitter, how would we be able to appreciate the sweet?

Thank you again for your time, I will be by soon.

Alisa 😊

[ANTO]

Yes - precisely Alisa - always a pleasure

[Tiana]

Aloha Alisa! It was so nice to stumble upon your poetry ... A very moving piece that stirred my emotions. Wonderfully written!

[Alisa Js]

Aloha,

Thank you for stopping by. I will be by soon,

Alisa 😄

[Lydia Shutter]

When sleep will not come, our minds are in charge of the trips we take. We can think of the what ifs and why nots and if onlys for hours. Yes, we all have choices and once they are made, we can not take them back or change the outcome. A very emotive write. I liked it. Lydi**

[Alisa Js]

Aloha Lydia,

Thank you for your comments.

Alisa 😃

[Zahra]

beautiful and deep. very well penned

[Alisa Js]

Aloha Zahra,

Thank you! I will be by soon,

Alisa :-)

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:: it's a very powerful and insightful piece of writing, dear alisa... :: and... it's triggered a million thoughts... :: i think when we get connected with people, we are not just impacted by our choices but by their choices as well... and then there are choices that our families make, our neighbourhoods make, our city's make, our countries make and global leaders make... :: and respecting diversity is fine... but what really makes my life heavy sometimes is when i have to make an effort to somehow assimilate the impact of choices that my loved ones make... and i'm sure my choices make their lives heavy too... :: these days i just bury myself in my work... or in a book... or in a film... and tire myself by about 3 am... and i still have a lucid dreaming problem...

:: in short, life is indeed heavy... and i think i relate to this poem so much... that i am reminded of how some days when i just switch off... :: thank you for triggering so many thoughts... somehow i feel more sorted out after reading this incredibly thought-provoking poem... :: it could well be my favourite poem by you...

[Alisa Js]

Thanks for your comments... it is a ripple effect whenever we deal with the human race...
aloha

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:: yeah... and you're very welcome...