Two Oh SixteenA Poem by Alice PoésyMe and another me. A description of an absence from a place and from a self.I watched a film at the beginning of this month by the same person who changed my perception of a steel box. There was a girl who did something unforgivable, but her reflection did it different. And I didn’t cry because I don’t think I fully understood what it meant. But now I do, and I can’t stop thinking about her. I never thought of myself as a poet. I never liked the word for myself. I was always more interested in people and why; in the way they moved, and what they went home to; whether it was the glowing cherry of a cigarette, or the laughter of another. I always called myself an observer; an introvert. I write and write, until I tear myself dry and there are slanting words that don’t make sense and blue ink all over my fingers. I will give you an entire galaxy, or not a single star at all. I wake up and see a hurricane in my dirty specked mirror which I'm too tired to clean. Yesterday I was me, but today I don’t know what that is, and tomorrow I am her. But her - is she me? I start too many things only to leave them half untangled. I say I am too many things only to find out I was wrong. I said I wasn’t those things, only to find out that I am all of them. What a year of halves, because I could never let go of one end. Because I want to hold all of it. I want to keep everything inside. I want to remember every single detail; how I told her I’ll stay; how I told him he’ll always have me, even though I knew that nothing truly lasts. Not love, not flowers; not laughter, not grief. I hope that the things we see in cinema do come true on another plane. I hope that my mirror image does it different. I hope she is forgiven. I hope she unravels it all; the whole thing, and create a beautiful picture with it. And god I hope her words will charm, and I will get to meet her. We’re always writing about how two people; mostly a man and a woman, meet and fall in love. But we never write about a woman and a woman; me and another me, meeting, and growing to love each other like a garden that never dries. © 2016 Alice PoésyAuthor's Note
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3 Reviews Added on December 25, 2016 Last Updated on December 25, 2016 Tags: life, change, forgiveness, confusion AuthorAlice PoésyEuropeAboutThere's definitely something old but something pretty new; something borrowed and something very, very blue. 20 years old; redheaded, European and unapologetic. I like people who paint vivid pictur.. more..Writing
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