forgive me father

a slam poem about my rape.

forgive me father for I have sinned 

I must have been asking for it

my clothes must have screamed 

please take advantage of me 

my facial expression must have implied 

I'll do anything  just for a night

so forgive me father for I have sinned

I led that poor boy on

what else was he supposed to think?

when he saw me drinking

what was I thinking 

when I stumbled up to bed 

we made eye contact once that night

so I obviously was asking for sex

forgive me father for I have sinned 

when I was so drunk and high I couldn't 

even reply so it's my fault I wasn't physically capable

of saying NO and everyone knows that when you 

can't say no  that means YES

I must confess

I must have liked it right 

because I didn't really fight

it couldn't have been I was frozen from fright

so forgive me father for I have sinned

I guess I'm just a b***h for calling him a rapist

but what else do you call when someone is f*****g you 

and you can't  escape it    

so maybe I should just send him flowers

and apologize for my mistake

I guess it wasn't rape 

if I was asking for it 

right?

Reviews

[Pete]

wow. powerful. so honest and heartfelt but sad. taking advantage doesn't make it consensual. this probably happens quite a bit and we never hear about. b*****d. so sorry ...

[00000000000000000000000..]

Depth with hurt and plea. I never been in that kind of place read many stories met many happen to. I have did my own pleas and asked as well. Sorry, that happen. See you're from Tn as well.

[Indra's Child]

I love this... this is a really powerful and direct way to describe society's unjust reaction to something as brutal and horrible as rape. The blame-the-victim mentality comes in to play a lot more when the affected party is women. It needs to be spoken about, written about, talked about, thought about for it to change. I love that you're doing that and taking back your power.
Amazing poem.