A Walk With Fate

She sat, darkness dousing the sound of her own pounding guilt
The devouring sound came from a wound within -- a wounded womb
She swam from day to day by way of her tears
In all of her 18 years alive, she had never felt so dead
The hollowed hope in her head, though, kept her afloat
Some symptoms still surfaced... what would be the odds
The doctor came back into the room with the test results
"My God... "

* * * * * * * 

There was a warm breeze at our backs as we trekked up the trail

I'll never forget how the Tri-Cities looked underneath that summer sunset

(Sure, the desert can sometimes be an ugly place

But the beauty is surely there if you look for it)

The words came easy between me & my mom on that fateful hike

Eventually she asked if I was happy where I was at

I told her that I thought I belonged

Then she suddenly stopped walking, I stopped talking

She looked me right in the eye & said

"It's time you knew...

I had an abortion when I was pregnant with you

& yet, there you were
& here you are

You are meant to be here
So wherever you are, that's where you're supposed to be

Trust me"

I would be pretending if I said that conversation didn't change me
People say it's a miracle, but, you know

I honestly don't know what to think

There may not even be a rhyme or reason for anything
At first I was angry
But then it became clear to me
It all made sense
Hearing about my abortion
Somehow cleared my sometimes contorted conscience 

I'm thankful just to be here

& to grow old with all my kindred souls on this world

Thank you for listening to the story of my almost denied life, my friend
My beginning should've been an ending
Blessings are often disguised as burdens
If I am supposed to be here for a reason, then, by God

It's my time to make the most of my time

It's my time to be myself: someone no one has ever been

Reviews

[just Penny]

What a superb piece of writing this is ! The opening stanza has to be one of the most original I have read in a while and the use of metaphor is wonderfully creative, bringing the tale to life instantly. Delicate subject matter handled so well, with an unexpected twist to it. Excellent ! Penny