How It All Ends

I’ve known him

For only three days

And I’m already

In love with him

 

He’s known me

And my friend

For only three days

He likes her more

 

She’s known me

For eight whole years

And him for only

Three short days

 

He asks her out

She doesn’t answer

My heart breaks

I’m in love with him

 

She has to say no

They live far apart

He in Delaware

She in Maryland

 

I tell him how I feel

And his answer is

“ALEXANNA!!!

If u lk me I cnt lk u back”

 

I ask to stay friends

He replies “Sure”

I ask if he hates me

He says he doesn’t

 

And not another word

Is said to me

I cry the tears

Of deepest sorrow

 

Curling up into

A tiny ball

Rocking gently

Back and forth

 

Sniffles

Whimpers

Then,

Silence

 

The world spins

My head aches

I cry the deepest

Tears of sorrow

 

The pain

Takes hold

Slowly eating

Me alive

 

When I can’t

Take any more

It turns into

Numbness

 

I can’t feel

Anything

No one else

Knows why

 

No pain

No joy

No sorrow

No life

 

I am but an

Empty shell

I still see his

Face in my mind

 

I look alive

On the outside

But I am dead

On the inside

 

They think I’m fine

They know nothing

Went wrong that day

They are clueless

 

 

He fills my mind

My every thought

My every dream

My whole being

 

And after all

That’s passed

I’m still in love

With H I M

 

Life goes by

In a whirl

Not tasting

What life is

 

I didn’t know

What life could

Be like if I

Never met him

 

Years could pass

And I’d never know

I am like nothing

I’m all alone

 

And as time passes

I still seem to hang on

I still cry about that day

My most vivid memory

 

I know sorrow

Better than joy

I know numbness

I know pain

 

I will never know

What life could be

If those three days

Never happened

 

And he doesn’t know

What he did to me

And how it broke me

He’ll never know

 

He moved on

With his life

He never thought

About me again

 

I still can’t

Pass that day

I will always

Think about him

 

His face is

Etched into

My mind with

Great detail

 

His deep eyes

His sharp nose

His gentle lips

His short hair

 

Soon enough

I’ll fall apart

Or worse �"

End my life

 

It’s an option

But I can’t

As hollow as

I am today

 

I still think about

What life was like

For those three days

And how I lived

 

The last three days

I actually lived

Until the joy ended

My life ending too

 

This is the end

Of my story

And my life

I love him

 

 * life ends*