Knight in black armor

Dear_____,

I grow into more of a skeptic each day. You know I've always hated people like that...the "love sucks" "girls are idiots" "all boys are the same" kind of people...now I fear that I'm slowly becoming one of them.

What the the hell did you do to me? I've always heard that some say a person would come into my life who would change everything, the way I think and feel...is this the kind of change that was coming towards me? Turning me into this wrecked up little girl who only wants pleasure not love?

Come to think of it...that pleasure...that need to touch the gates of heaven...believe me, hadn't my faith been this strong I would've slept with your best friend and showed you what I'm made of. Hadn't I been fighting my inner sadist I would've murdered you in the most creative and painful way possible...baby just thinking about it...it's such an ecstatic feeling.

It's really not that hard...grab a guy and date him. Isn't that what all these kids are doing? So why didn't I just grab the other guy and moved on? Oh wait. I'd already submitted myself to you, though not in real life, but in my mind.

And after all these heartbreaks I can't really think about getting into something...even though I know that it will work out with someone else, even though I want it so bad...I can't. There will always be something holding me back...maybe it's you, the memories of the nightmare that I went through when those worlds left your lips-"nothing at all"

The funny part is, I believed that our relationship was more than a bunch of facebook chats...and that's where I took a wrong turn. Boy I really know how to love like a blind idiot.

Hey it's getting late and I really gotta wrap this up. You played with my darkness, and you left it singing. You've only made me into something even darker. Now I just keep wondering...how deep is this darkness really? Will I ever be able to find out?

Sincerely,
Your knight in black armor

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[Arsh]

I was just scrolling your poetry page a second back then.. suddenly, got this newly pen'd write. Well, your writes're quiet deep. And, I think... there's still much more hidden behind your words. Correct me if i'm wrong?
However, your emotions're seemed worth-reading themselves in words. As far as, I observe through such pieces, I believe, you're in .. or may be, passing through much pain... are you? (If may I give you a trouble to... ?)

[Alexandra]

Like I said, I'm going through a lot. My friends probably don't even want to hear about this...lol and yes there's so much more to this then it meets the eye.