My sleepless night

Just like you desire love,  happiness and tranquility, is it possible for someone to desire pain?

I don't know why sometimes i feel like i have some need to be sad and cry, it became more than a need.. a desire? RIght now a wish. Possibly, tired of happiness?

Could a normal human being have a possible explanation for someone desiring to mourn or cry and grief?

I asked God for a sign and He instantly responded to my request.

Melancholic, because of the guilt, the shame.. How could I look into your face dear Heavenly Father?

Torment me Father, but do not tolerate my mistakes, please...

Erase me, finish me. I don't want to hide from you face, my soul is full with rugged pathways.

Asking you to harm me and damage me is compared to the impossible.

It is my sin, i confess. But please do teach me a lesson.

What is it with me asking for pain?

Help me Lord remove my fears and my tears

Arrange my soul, i don't want to feel sole

Could you erase my past and give me strenght

cause don't want to see to what extent i can corrupt

I always have You at my best and at my worst.

How could i forget about You? Forgive me..

My words are sincere and honest, your words are the wisest and the rightest.

Guide me, therefore into your lights... Don't leave me.

I do not mean to order You, but my hurt is bigger than my thoughts right now...

Your lost child.

Reviews

[JMaster1]

Very interesting wish , you are asking for a test
You need the pain to feel alive

[AarZoo]

Very true, since too much goodness would be scary after all.