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after 5 months of yelling, hiding, and crying, its still hard for me to not think about our break up. i feel like i shouldnt be crying anymore and im not but everytime i think about us and what he had.

i went on facebook and saw your face and i think it almost killed me. i dont wanna be thinking all the time about what we could of had when u dont want it. to me our relationship was perfect but i guess to u if wasnt even worth it.

it seem like other people mattered to u than me. i cried over and over again almost every night cause i wanted us to workout. i was so scared of losing you.

i promised myself that i wouldnt dwell on the past and move on but the more life goes on i miss u you everyday. i know our relationship was hard because we were both girls and black and our families had different beliefs about us, but to me i didnt care at all bout nothing. who cares? if u loved me enough u would've stayed. but i guess not