Solutions

"Listen, I'm not a bad person, I just... Well, maybe a bit selfish, yeah. But everyone's selfish a bit. You have to be. I mean... You're shaking your head.

I know! I let her down. I... maybe let a lot of people down... She... I was making life hard for her. This will be better for her in the end. Maybe not for both of us, but maybe for her. I think. I... Well, don't you think? I was no good for her. It was getting too hard. I saw the way she looked... Well, she was scared to look at me. That's not a way to live. That's not a way to love someone. There's someone better for her. Some thing...

I think she probably cried. Yeah, I know she did. There was nothing I could have said! What do you say to someone? You're shaking your head again. Well, why are you here? You don't end up here for no reason. You aren't going to say, are you?

Well, it's done now. Is it better? You see what it's like here. But I know I'm not... Well, ah, I was making people miserable. I couldn't do it. Er, I didn't want to... There was nothing I could do to make her happy... She deserves nice things and somebody that'll come home and kiss her and she'll be okay with looking him in the eye. I did it FOR her, not BECAUSE of her. I... oh, I should have told her something. Oh, now you nod. Tell me what you did to get here! You can't be any better than me. What does that look mean?

Okay, I guess, I mean, I guess I just couldn't handle... Everything was so heavy, every day was like trying to... I couldn't do it. And I couldn't stand how she wouldn't look at me. She smiled but... How could she even love me any more? I was empty. Maybe if I'd talked to her... I don't know! What does it matter? It happened and she cried and now I'm here. Maybe it was impulsive. Maybe there was... No, there was nothing else. The thing is... I'm a person and I... Well, I don't know how a person is supposed to feel. And... I... Ah... Well, it doesn't matter. I'm here."

Author's Note

I'm currently without my computer so any grammar issues are most likely because I wrote this on my phone. And I'm aware that putting this in the "story" category might not be the most accurate.

That being said I'd love people's honest opinions/interpretations.

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