Love

Firstly, let me start with the truth: I honestly do not know what love is. And boy, I wish I knew. I know it exists somewhere out there, it must; or otherwise millions of people around the world are constantly lying (which I guess could be true). I've read books, seen movies, been told, "it's the most magical thing ever" "it's when you feel content" "it's when everything is wonderful" "it's when you can't think of anything else but them". But is this really the meaning?
I know, I have personally experienced every single one of the emotions there. But I can tell you now, it wasn't "love" in that sense. If it was love, then really it does not live up to any of its expectations.
For me, the most magical thing ever is dancing en pointe. I know people laugh, but for me it really seems like the closest thing to magic. It doesn't mean I "love" my pointe shoes so much I want to marry them, but that's the most magical thing out there that I have experienced, and it felt pretty damn amazing.
I can almost not imagine what "feeling content is". But the closest I've ever got to that emotion, is finally being accepted. Being surrounded by friends and family (mostly friends) who know my faults but still accept me, and I feeling included and as though there is a sense of worth in life, that is what makes me content. But that no way means that's "love".
The only experience I have had with the last two quotes, was with my ex-boyfriend. However, I was 15, he was my first boyfriend, and the whole thing was "wonderful" purely because of a mixture of a desire to be cared for, rebelling against my parents and what everyone expected from and how I didn't follow that at all. My mind was always occupied on him, because I was young, naive, and I actually thought that there was someone out there always thinking about me. Well that was a lie, and I learnt never to trust anyone again, but even if it was wonderful at the time. It wasn't love. Even though I convinced myself it was.
Which, makes me think that love is not an unconscious thing, but a conscious thing we try to convince ourselves of. This makes me believe that although we find ourselves attracted to someone, we could go a lifetime without feeling love, because it becomes a fabricated word associated with bliss and a partner.
In today's society, I feel that everyone just throws the word around, altering it context continuously. One minute, it means the "ultimate feeling" the next it's used between a couple on their first date whom barely know each other, but think that this is what it is, or it's thrown around in colloquial speech between friends, in movies in songs. But does anyone in any of these context's really know what love is? Has any of them ever felt it? What is it?

Feel free to leave your thoughts below :)

Author's Note

As you see, I'm a tad obsessed with prospect of love/ being loved but when I think about it, it confuses me.

Reviews

[Amaya Sullivan]

Aw, well, I believe love is different for everyone. You love dancing so it would be a different feeling when you apply it to a person.

Some people may have that cheesy feeling when they meet someone for the first time the butterflies and all.Others may have that tug in their heart or have thoughts of someone taking over their mind throughout the day. Those are just some examples of what people feel or have felt.

I think it would be left up to you ultimately. You may not experience any of these subtle hints, but I would believe that one thing is constant about love. Not being able to live without that person.

I am sure you can go through life without experiencing love for another person, but how you question it so much and think on it tells me you really want to experience it. That is how I perceive what you wrote. I might be wrong.

I wouldn't over think it too much though ^_^