I need to be me

This is a character monologue I had to write for a creative writing class. I would really appreciate a lot of feedback.

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“I am so sick of people who think they know everything, and I’m tired of trying to be like them. I just want people to see me for who I really am. I want them to see me as me, but that might be a problem. I’ve been trying to be like them for so long, I don’t know if I even know the real me. I want to go back to preschool, and start over. Can I do that? I need a detox, to get rid of all the crap that doesn’t belong to me. Does that make any sense? I just want to stop and think about what appeals to me and not everyone else. What kind of music do I like? What kind of clothes do I want to wear? What do I want to eat? Where do I want to go?

             I think I know. I think I’m starting to get an idea of who I am. I don’t like country music or most rap, but I’m into pretty much everything else. I like black clothes. It’s not because I’m depressed or ‘Emo.’ I just like the way they look and make me feel. I like any Italian food. I like to read. I watch anime. I like to sing, and I play in the band at my highschool. I don’t think I’m very smart, but I get good grades. I don’t like labels, but I use them anyway. If I really looked into myself and went over what I like, I would probably label myself a geek or a dork, but does it really matter? Labels are what made me want to be like other people in the first place. I didn’t want to be labeled a geek. I wanted to be ‘popular.’ Bleh. I hate that word now. It’s so stupid.

            I’m fourteen years old, and I’m tired of caring about what people think about me. I have brown hair. That’s the color I was born with. It’s straight. I don’t really do much with it. I used to try to change it to look like everyone else. I even dyed my hair blonde once. Not anymore. I won’t allow myself to be controlled by other people anymore. I will do what I want to do.”

Author's Note

feel free to really tear into this. It's just my first draft.

Reviews

[Clyde du Coeur]

It's so touching to see your feelings elaborated like this. It's pretty much what a lot of teenagers go through in high school. It will get easier though, and better if I may say so myself. Having turned 21 a month ago, I looked back and saw how far I've come since those horrible years in my teens - where girls who I thought were my friends teased and manipulated me; where boys utilised my crushes on their sex to the extreme, only to rub it in my face and make it seem like it was against the law. Chin up though chuck - I will go back to the 90s for my final word - I dig this ;) Keep it up, express your anger through your passion to write :) xx

[charlotte talley]

I believe you have captured your feelings very well in this piece. I like it. and yes this is a good conversation you have going here, which means it is a monologue. now all you have to do is put this with a character/like you are telling them this. good one!!!!!