It was 8 o'clock.
She was seething in anger. An hour had passed since she arrived and there was
no sign of him. She was summing up what she would say once he showed up. ”Who
the hell does he think he is!” she thought.
She left the
restaurant at 9pm. He did not come, his cell was not reachable; she was in
tears now. It was their first anniversary, he had missed it! She got into the
nearest taxi, gave directions to the driver and then, she let the tears flow.
All her dreams flashed in retrospect, so did her marriage, his face, their
love, and their fights. How could he! Was she too sensitive? Was she
overreacting? Did she get the restaurant wrong? The cacophony of her disruptive
thoughts and the rumbling traffic confused her and the tears came haltingly
now. As her vision cleared the cab came to a halt in front of the familiar
house, the place they called Home. She stumbled out of the taxi angry, confused
and hurt, paid the fare and walked towards the house. It looked just as it had
when she had left: all lights were out and the door was locked. She unlocked
the door and entered cautiously as if hoping him to jump out of the dark and
wish her, but, that did not happen. It was 10 pm. He was never this late without
notice. Her mind was starting to run wild, where the hell was he! Bile rose in
her stomach contemplating the possibilities. Was he cheating on her? With whom?
Probably the brunette she met the other day at his office lunch. What if something had happened to him? Was he
okay? She wanted to know if he was okay or not NOW! Was she going crazy? She
was so far away from home! She wanted to call ma so badly, but, not so fast.
She had to calm down. She called his cell once again, it was still not
reachable. It was 11 pm. She had no time to waste anymore, she called his
office. They said he left early to surprise her. They started to enquire, she
disconnected the call. Then she called the few friends they had in this new
city and they too knew nothing of his whereabouts. She sat down on the hard
cold ground beside her phone, the fear palpable. She could feel the panic
attack approaching as it slowly paralyzed her and then darkness engulfed her;
with it came peace.
Where was she?
Heaven? Hell? Her head was pounding, or was it the door? What door? Are there
doors in heaven? Or hell? It was all so
confusing. She squeezed her eyes shut; the light was hurting her eyes. The
pounding was getting louder. Then came the voices. “Rusha, are you okay?” A
woman was shouting. “Open the damn door!” A man’s voice echoed. “What are you
up to?” “Open the door” “Rushaaaaaa”.
Bang Bang Bang Bang! She got up; the image in the mirror startled her.
She was in her night dress. “What the hell”, she thought. She was thinking hard
now. How can this be? What? She collapsed. Her husband was gone. Who? Then it
all cleared up.
She, Rusha, was
never married. It was 12:20 am on the digital wall clock. The TV was still on,
the crime scene still playing. “Damn serials!” she thought aloud and giggled to
herself with a sigh of relief. She opened the door. Her father was panicking
and her mother was trembling with anger; birthday cake in hand. It was her 18th
birthday and she gave herself a heart attack over a dream. All was good; she
smiled to herself and pacified her parents.