abyss

a pity to be, what i once thought was me 

the trees save shade for the hearts growing weak 

but life exists, and goes on without thought 

i’m wondering still if you’re all that i’ve got 

if our paths were designed by the forces inside 

i wonder if your heart’s just like mine 

forever in a glimpse, my love we’re amidst 

a losing game, by the thoughts at play 

holding me back, eternity is the wait 

i’m asking for more, a touch or the whole 

chasing around a dream growing old 

for you, i wait, forever in a wake 

designed by my fate, 

the loneliness and pain 

i love the world,  for all you could be 

the leaves and the rain, nature as it breathes 

for me, you live inside my dreams, i deny 

for me, you are... the only one alive 

and in this world, that i love so much so 

you live with a love too still and untold

prying at the grounds of what we’ve become 

digging to discover the truth of our love

where have you hidden? where’ve you gone?

living my life as if i’m not lost 

confused by the past, confused by the signs 

is it my choice, or was it all designed?

have i free-will, or are you also a lie?

can i believe the sight of my open-eyes?

the feeling in my chest, am i to deny?

am i to live in a world without life?

running in circles, the questions i’d kill

in a second, next to you, my hope is fulfilled 

an existential dread, i’m cursed every second

wondering where i’d lead without severance 

i’m only me when i enter the abyss

darkness awaiting the fall of my sins
surrendering me of all that i give 

emptying me to nothing but bits