why me

“Being alone is never an option” my mom says while I refuse to leave my room. My mom wants me to be more out there, join everything known to mankind, live a life like today is going to be the last day. Well she doesn’t understand how I get treated at school, she thinks that just showing up will  get accepted, because in her time period it was that easy but know it is a progress you go through and most likely won’t end up on the team.  Also if I was just going to show up they would kick me off the team because of the reputation I have at school. But the only reason I have this reputation is because no one knows my life at home but if they did they wouldn’t be treating me poorly at school. But if my mother figures out how I’ve been treated at school like this she would probably never forgive herself so I plan to keep everything a secret (to myself.)

Well if my mom knew the way I acted in school was because of what happened to me through my life she would probably never forgive herself even though she can’t change it anyway. What happened was when I was six years old my baby brother died before my eyes, when I turned nine my parents got a divorce, and that same year my oldest sister moved out of the house because she wanted to go live with my dad and I was too young to make the decisions of who to live with so the judge said I had to stay with my mom until I’m eighteen then I get to decide who I want to live with or even if I want to be on my own.