Last words

In time, they will release the video

containing my last words.

I will smile, but you will not see

the joy and mirth radiating from my face

as I know the hour of my departure

draws ever nearer.

Look to the West Bank, to Raqqah,

to Fallujah, to Tehran, to Kabul,

to any of the cities I left pieces of my heart

for answers concerning my last seconds

with believers, with my family here in this world.

Look there for my reasons of why I did

the things I did.

- - - - - -

I look to leave as he left,

with a love and a life so much greater

than any open-air prison could ever hold.

God takes all the bad emotions out of us

when we get to Heaven (if we get there)

so we won't be mad if we see someone

we didn't like when we were alive.

So I'm looking forward to it, to seeing him.

I'll forget the damage done, the irreversible harm,

the pain, the brokenness, and the grudge -

and I'm going to run into his arms like he never hurt me.