Blank mind

You know when a lot of things are happening around you and you are just surviving just for the sake. There is nothing on your brain. It's just a blank paper n emotionally you have a rollercoaster.

Not sure what to write when the mind is blank.

Not sure what to acknowledge when there is nothing,

Not sure if words can fix when I am mute.

Trying to be calm,

Trying to be the old me,

Trying to be a better self.

Just like how I,

Try to blend in while in distress,

Try to laugh out while in pain,

Try to smile while in ache.

Nowadays I’ve evolved,

Into more pain that is physical,

Into discomfort to speak up,

Into a cocoon in my bubble,

Locking out the world,

Fight with my own self,

Unable to believe in myself,

Scared to look into mirror,

Afraid to find a completely different person,

A person who is not confident in own skin,

A person who is affected by lill things,

A person who is destroyed each day,

Giving out an unnatural smile,

Giving out an unwanted laugh,

Giving explanation on what’s wrong,

Giving reason to why I am this way,

The reflectings on me don't lead a correct path,

Not sure when I’ll be out of it,

The wait for the misery to end,

Not sure if I’ll be ok.

The suffer of Blank mind,

The pain!
The anxiety!
The fear!

Bearing a torch of hope,

Waiting for the ray of light,

Waiting for the positive turn,

Waiting for the dawn.

Author's Note

from one screwed up mind to other

Reviews

[Mystical Ink]

This is sad. I had suffered post-partum depression and it really feels like this. I thought there's no end to it. Just trust the process. It takes time to heal the wound or to even feel something.