Bittersweet

I wish I could

Get over you

You're too bittersweet

I hate you for being

Unattainable

For sparking false hope

Inside me

For flirting with other girls

Glancing at me while you do

At the same time

I love it!

Self-torture can be fun,

In the short run.

In the long run,

It sucks.

It keeps me awake

With battling thoughts

Inside my head

You can't like me

You don't know me

Yet

I love you

How can I if I don't even know

What you like

Music

Books

Animals

What are you like

When no one's around?

When no one can judge you

When you feel

Secure

Happy

At peace

I wish you could feel that way around me

But

You probably already do

No reason not too, right?

I want to feel that way around you

But I can't

Fiddling with clothes

Sucking in my stomach

Desperate for a mirror

Do I look all right?

Would you love me if you didn't?

You don't make me feel secure

You're too

Perfect

If we were friends

Maybe it'd change

But you do make me

Happy

Blissful

It feels great

Just to be around you

To see you

To hear your voice

To breathe the air you stirred

You're like drugs or a sugar rush

Bittersweet

Feels great when I take you

The effects sometimes feel wonderful

Other effects confuse me, hurt me

Like hallucinations

Could you have feelings?

Or are they purely imagined?

Other girls have already

Written poems about you

Declared their love for you

I don't think you realize how

Lucky

You are.

So why do I even try?

Why am I any different?

Because I have hope,

I think,

Do you like me

Just a bit?

But then I think,

Are you playing me?

Oh, God,

Please don't be playing me

I beg you

Don't be a pig

I don't want to catch your flu

You know plenty of girls

I know it's selfish

But

Please

Play them

Instead of me

My love life has sucked

Sincce the beginning

I don't want to add

Another failure

To my list

My

Long

Long

List

Maybe one day

I'll move on

Cured of my addiction

Meanwhile

I feel hope

When my friends say

You were staring

Or

You were making a point to be near me

Subtly interested?

Possibly

Yet

I can't believe it

You don't return my messages

Or acknowledge me other than

Occasional eye contact

Even though the eye contact makes me weak

It's not enough

Is it because I'm not popular?

I hope that's not the reason

I don't want you to be that shallow

But

If I was, would we be dating?

I want to be part of your life

An important part

I want to be the reason for

The light in your beautiful eyes

The spring in your step

You favorite part of school

I don't want to feel the way I do

So

Insignificant

An ant

A grain of sand

Every euphemism in the book

I don't want to be

The girl you never gave much thought

I want to be

The girl you can't get off your mind

The girl you can't stop looking at

The girl you would

Kiss

Cherish

Respect

Love

As your girlfriend

The girl you'd take, flaws and all

Even if I'm not supermodel-thin

Or if I have

Not-so-clear skin

Not-so-straight teeth

Not-so-sharp eyesight

Or if I fail a quiz

Or if my joke fails to make someone laugh

I want you to love me

I want you to be the one I can count on

To make me feel

Special

Beautiful

Funny 

Important

Loved

The one who'd do anything for me

Like I for you

You'd be bittersweet without the bitter

Kissed

Cherished

Respected

Loved

I want to be your girlfriend

If you'd take me

Reviews

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This reminds me way too much about my life in high school. I remember liking this girl so much, but she never showed interest in me despite all I did to get her attention. This was a very well written poem that is emotional and relatable.