Am I confused

This is not what I am, but something I have become
for all the pain, I don’t even complain
I wanted things to be fine, but they are not
I want to make things fine, but I cannot

Am I confused, I don’t know
to my surprise, I don’t even want to know
you’ll say I look confused, my life all fused

I want to shout out loud, will you hear me??
Lend me your ears, I shall tell you my story
I want you to understand, I want to show you my stand
Am I wrong, you decide.