PTSD

With PTSD

Your head is never really "quiet"

It's always

Over analyzing

Whether it's people, places, or situations

It always happens

Are they going to hit me

Where is the nearest escape

Are they abusive

What if someone shoots this place up

And all you hear about

Are the military men and women

Who can't sleep at night

But you never hear about 

The raped

The abused

Or the bullied

When suffering from PTSD

It's like having an invisible bubble around you

And if someone tries to sneak in

Your alarms are set off

And when positive physical contact is attempted

You back away saying

I'm sorry

As you are shaking

Because the event

Was so painful

That you refuse

Physical contact

In a way I guess you could say

We are all soldiers

Fighting the memories

Of battle between

You and the event

That set off your alarms

Reviews

[I Am Svetlana]

I love the thought behind this and it is true "We are all soldiers", whether we think so or not. One day, something will certainly make us put up our walls and set our alarms, to keep us prepared for anything or anyone surrounding us. It's not always the best thing, living our lives everyday, having to constantly look over our shoulders or be on guard about anyone approaching. We always assume the worst, that thought alone about the possibilities that could happen, keep us prepared and ready for the worst. PTSD is a terrible thing to experience, but we must admit that it exists. Those who serve who develop it are at great risk...worse than most would think and it's shattering to know that it gets so bad in which they must take a gun to their head in order to end the pain, the agony and struggle of having to endure nightmares and fear. I loved this! Great write.