Unstated

My horror.

Never had I ever

Made my temper longer

I really wanna go,

My friend or foe!

I barely have walks and talks

And I don't have folks

Living in darkness and smoke

Staring at myself, I choke

Playing with myself then laugh

Thinking was I ever enough?

There, the chaos initiated

In the little world we created

I can feel now the catalyst

Running fast up to my chest

I can hear it loud

Slowly moving to the cloud

Looking at him, should I cast my rant?

Mind say no, how will he grant?

I blink twice I see my alter

Give a look and turned back after

Begging self don't leave again

I need you near, felt so much pain

Quickly she disappear

Alone she left me up here

Calling me, he give a snap

Im back from a sudden stop

What's up with you, Hey!

Nothing!, I say

Loud pounding sound playing melancholy

I am going to say him oddly

Im never mad but hurt

From seven its the forth

I knew it

But kept it

Dont push me to the edge

It feels awful like cuts from wedge

Will you stop causing me anxiety!

My brain screams, tears roll silently

Like boom it gives me chills

Now Im shaking like the drills

Hoping you feel my agony

I wanna go home with my Nanny

I think I lost my circle

Looking for it I broke my ankle

Help me like you promised

Or leave me then vanish

I hated you cuz' your an a*****e

But your'e the one who made me whole

Now I hated myself more

Oh well! Just ignore.

Im a prisoner now of my thoughts

Tangled with it like knots

Im good, dont mind me

Behind I say, "Please help me"

Gave you my sweetest smile

But wanting to run a mile

Skipping and escaping its plague

How? Im not that brave

'I'm bold', was a lie

Cuz' underneath I cry

Witnessed by the burned ashes

Quickly everything flashes

From his first confession

Forgiving was my decision

Nose dripping, swollen eyes

Thinking rapidly to finalize

I came up ending it

But I'll be left incomplete

It's getting worse

So I created a morse

It is simple yet so deep

You will never know what I keep

For the mean time I have to stop

And probbably cut it by half

I had to make it more mysterious

For him to take it serious

I glance at him, he's tearing

At my mind I hope he isn't lying

I assume he's afraid of my wrath

And regret the aftermath

Now I hold the situation

Had to keep it with precision

I stand unarmored and powerless

He didn't know cuz' I show less

I want him to understand indirectly

For him to know me perfectly

Gotta stop it now

But again, I dont know how

Or I am just coward

To move alone forward

Want to stab my self with spear

Or just suddenly disappear

My mouth stutters

Need to safely lock my chambers

All I want is to continue

Cuz' he might've found new

I'm so insecure

Got to find a cure

I don't want to get to used to it

It might kill me in a minute 

I look at the stars

I remembered the scars

Embracing the wind

It's one of my friend

Breathe in, breath out

All I can do now is shout

Author's Note

Ignore grammar problems.