What?

So much s**t to delete on my phone

So much time I thought I was calling you my own

But okay, I'm always wrong and need to end up alone

I guess I’m an a*****e that’s just the way I was grown

I don't know.

All my life is just bullshit stitched and sewn

I just wish all this worthlessness were gone

That’s me.

On a side note

I have a lot of words stuck in my throat

I can't tell anyone about it cause i don't want a pity party or a getaway boat

Is life s****y? (hardly) I just feel like nobody can guard me from myself and all that I loathe

I can't sit peacefully

I don't have decency

You won't f*****g speak to me

I'm a waste of space to say the least, see

If I was a good person everyone I love wouldn't be hurting, they wouldn't be alerting me of my failures like I'm inserting and making them into me

Like I wasn't already a failure, like I wasn't a polluted river flowing into your ocean of feelings so pure

As if I need to be reminded

Of the last time I said I’d never go back to being blinded

Cause if I had you I wouldn't need sight then

All the other feelings, I’d fight them

But I know that is how all good things end.

 

I fell down the bottomless well

Of emptiness

I hit the walls and felt the stings of life's painful tests

I couldn't see the rest

I was out, cold as its damp baron floors

The life giving water dried long ago

I am part of its black existence forever more