Ohana

Ohana means family

Family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten

But it seems the meaning itself is being forgotten everyday

The people who I thought were my ohana, aren't

They expose rows of teeth and give each other love and affection

But they turn around and take their guns out aiming at me

They fire bullets of hurt, but

Not at me.

At they ones in our flower of family they so strongly despise.

And I hear every gunshot, every scream, every word of anger and aggravation

Why did it take so long to realize our flower is falling apart at the roots?

All of my elementary years I never knew what love was

What it felt like to belong somewhere

How it felt to not be on your toes ready to defend yourself all of the time

For the first time in my existence I got the chance to experience that

And turns out

It was all FAKE.

FAKE

Three years in middle school no one told me

No one said what they were tired of

And now our white,soft,but strong ohana hibiscus is stained red

Red for the pain'

The anger

The words being shouted to each petal

A storm itself occurred inside this delicate flower

Blowing away