Just like...

a summer memory

I gave you my trust.

You broke it.

Just like how you broke my innocence

ten summers ago

between the numbers of hide-and-seek

behind the bushes

while twilight embraced the earth.

Just like how you embraced me

from my back

as you whispered in my ear

a plea to keep quiet

so as not to be discovered.

I stayed silent.

Just like how you silenced yourself

when you pressed your weight

on top of me

and your hands explored

what's beneath my clothes.

I looked at you.

You smiled.

Just like how you used to smile

during those innocent days

of climbing trees

and chasing rainbows.

You're the older brother I never had.

I ran away.

Just like how I run away

from affections of men,

still scared and scarred...

And summers were never the same again.

Just like me.

Reviews

[Priscilla Sayers]

My Sweet friend, this piece is powerful and quite frankly enrages me.
I know this was a hard piece to write, a truth bared as you also exposed a painful moment that did not flee as moments often do but instead lingers still in the scars you incurred.
I give you this my brave girl, embrace your scar for they are what shows YOU how far you have come in this world that has a constant disease of ripping away at the innocence of others. But you must remember, those scars should never define you nor have they truly stolen your innocence. You are still innocent, it is the beast of betrayal who is not, innocent. Your innocence remains deep within where your Soul is filled with the Light of a girl who can shine as brightly as the Sun once you acknowledge that which has harmed you is dead and gone. beneath the scars lies the strength for you to rise within yourself and conquer the demons who diminish your spirit, Love.
XOXO

[Blue]

I almost cried when I read this, Priscilla. I'm touched, really. Thank you so much for sharing your insights.

[Priscilla Sayers]

Only truth Sweet Arzel. You are most welcome, it was an honor to read.
XOXO

[Frieda P]

A heavy sigh in reading this one, hoping it's just a poet's imagination bleeding on the pages, an extremely affecting read Arzel.

[Blue]

Thank you, Frieda.

[Frieda P]

Always a pleasure to read you Arzel, happy Friday. :-)

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A touching, heartfelt and emotional piece that reads well and transcends human expectation, well done, good read.

[Blue]

Thank you so much, Thomas.

[Jack...]

Oh my, this my friend is heart breaking. This type of thing should never be forced on anyone, the pain, the fear, the internal sickening feeling...you poem stirkes a chord, rips the tears from my eyes and paints darkness on my mind. Very well written, extremely deep and dark and innocent. Sadness flows from your pen.

[Blue]

Thank you so much, Jack.

[Avinash]

Your poem robbed me of words.... Its like truth slapping on your face.. But one thing I will like to say..Make yourself stronger ..that strong that you can forgive...and I wish and pray you are able to love again.

[Blue]

You are kind, Avinash. Thank you.

[gabrielle]

This piece is deeply disturbing. There's nothing more tragic than to be betrayed by someone you trust. i don't really like the content per se (for being so painful) but you penned it so well. Blue, your writings stirred different emotions in me.

[Blue]

Thank you so much, Gab.

[Dayran]

A fruit not yet ripe when plucked doesn't get a chance to ripen ... until ... we learn the flavor of ripe fruits ... on other trees. Then maybe we might fruit again. A bold poem Arzel ... Happy Valentine.

[Blue]

Thank you, Dayran.

[Saddam]

oh....so sorry for this. A gloom writing on own pain...but this is life and it is carry on... love to read you writing dear....nice crafted.

[Blue]

Thank you, Ssadd.

[Anita Singh]

One incident and nothing is ever the same again. Scaring of the soul is permanent and the damaged is done beyond repair. The innocence is lost. While reading this poem I felt pangs of self loathing. It’s pretty complicated, but that’s how I felt. Having gone through such a situation myself I felt my heart speaking the words you have written. It takes much time to nurture a relation but in an instant everything is destroyed. I think it is the most awful thing I hope and pray no one goes through. For me life has never been the same. I have difficultly trusting people. I feel insecure. I am emotionally unavailable. I get depressed instantly. I am a maniac depressive. When one half of me rejoices the other half cannot join in. There are at times I feel to escape, to run away from all the men and the trouble they bring.

[Blue]

Anna... You are so brave to share this experience in public. I empathize with you. I'm really sorry about what you went through.