Okay

The truth behind...

Okay

(Song)

I'm not gonna tell you I'm losing my head.

Not  gonna tell you I wish I were dead.

I'm not gonna lay my defenses down

and tell the world I'm breaking.

I'm not gonna sit down just to cry.

Not gonna answer your question why.

I'm not gonna turn my laughter off

and this sweet smile I'm faking.

'Cause I am okay...

Yes, I am okay...

But

Just who am I kidding?

Deep down I'm almost dying

from all the lies and the lullabies.

No.

I'm not okay and

just who am I fooling?

Just me

'Cause no one's hearing

the screams within and the pain I'm in.

No.

I've never been okay.

Oh, oh.

Never been okay.

I'm not gonna let my parents down.

Not gonna change a smile for a frown

I'm not gonna act insane and

confess that nothing's well.

I'm not gonna show my naked face.

Not gonna tell you how's me in this place.

I'm not gonna ask for any help and

be rescued from this hell.

'Cause I am okay...

That's what I always say...

But

Just who am I kidding?

Deep down I'm almost dying

from all the lies and the lullabies.

No.

I'm not okay and

just who am I fooling?

Just me

'Cause no one's hearing

the screams within and the pain I'm in.

No.

I've never been okay.

Somebody, hear my plea!

Get this off of me.

And tell me this is gonna end.

(end, end)

Why can't you read my mind

and leave judgment behind?

Don't be a stranger, be my friend.

(I need a friend.)

But

Just who am I kidding?

Nobody's even listening

to this song and the truths along.

That's not okay.

And just who am I fooling?

Nobody's even caring

to see through my eyes

and past the lies...

Author's Note

I wish I could let you hear how this sounds but given the circumstances, that's not yet possible.

Thanks for dropping by.

Reviews

[Chris]

Well, I look forward to hearing it when you record it.

[Blue]

Thank you, Chris.

[Coyote Poetry]

Very hard to write good music. You did. I like the flow of thoughts in the poem and the reason for the poem. I like the logic of the poem. You are right. Life is our to live and repair. Thank you for the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Blue]

Thank you, Coyote.

[Dilshan Senaratne]

Is there a recorded version?

[Blue]

I intend to make one but posting it here might take a while. I'm quite busy these days.

[Dilshan Senaratne]

Make sure you update it here when a recording does come up. This is beautifully written...

[Blue]

I will inform you, thanks a lot.

[Chaze Casillas]

This is lovely! I can imagine in my head how it sounds! I think it has great lyrical potential! :)

[Blue]

Thank you, Chaze.

[Jack...]

This is wonderful Sennah. I wish I could hear the melody, but I seemed to sing it all the way through reading

[Blue]

Thank you, Jack.

[Eddie Davis]

A very nice song, full of urgency, desperation and even some pseudo-pride. Very nicely done, I could almost imagine the music behind it.

[Blue]

Thank you, Eddie.

[Rasi Rana]

Really Nice lines)) These will fit better in a melody and a beat)) If these lines are heard instead of reading it'll be more effective) I could imagine) :)

[Blue]

Thank you, Rasi.

[Papercut-Sunrays]

This is brilliant! I enjoyed the pure emotion. You're a wonderful writer, and I look forward to seeing this with music sometime :))

[Blue]

Thank you so much.

[Gracie G]

I bet this sounds even lovelier set to music :) Very emotional, great job!

[Blue]

Thank you, Gracie.