WHO I USE TO BE

 

I use to know me, know who I was

With out a doubt, with no apologies

I use to be brave, fearless, and wild

Unaffected by the world

By what others expected from me 

But now it seems, whatever magic I use to posses is gone

Lost beneath a wave of self doubt

Beneath the regrets and shame that seems to coat my very existence

Is it any wonder that I can't seem to recapture who I was

Is it any wonder that I don't even know where to start looking

that with each passing day

I see the things I hold dear slip from my grasp

Fading away, with all the things I wasn't brave enough to say

With all the things I wasn't strong enough to do

What happened to me

To that fierce person I use to be

So bold, so strong, so daring

That girl would laugh at what I've become

So weak, so afraid, so broken

So disgusting.