2am thoughtsA Poem by addisonthis is me making an attempt at writing poetry
my head is a very busy place
there are things here that i like like the good memories that i made with my favourite people but there are also things that i could do without like anxiety which takes every little mistake i make and amplifies it by 100 so everything seems a lot worse that in already is i can hear its chatter above everything else in my head causing me to overthink things to the point where all i want to do is go home and forget about it even if i really want to do things i cant when im in school the anxiety drowns out everything else going on inside there it becomes me and everything i say everything i learn its loud enough to make me put down my pen and just rest my head on the edge of the desk and just pray that i am home or safe in someones arms but i do not have anyones arms to be in because of what anxiety says to me how nobody really likes me, and how im annoying them they dont need me, im unimportant there is always someone better than me. in public is no better and anxiety screams at me when i walk down the sidewalk or i sit on the bus it says, everyones judging you. they probably all think youre ridiculous it keeps yelling at me to the point where i get scared to press the stop button on the bus or to cross the road and im often taking long cuts to get to my destination because anxiety thinks its better for me. and at first, when it was new in my head i didnt listen. and i could continue to do the things i loved without fear but now years later i have no choice to listen, everything i do now is controlled by anxiety and its been so long, that i dont even know who i would be without this illness wrapped around my mind.
© 2015 addisonAuthor's Note
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