masked names

what mask should i wear today
when i go online to play
will i be the kidder the fool
or the whipped tool
will i be the closet writer
or will i be the drunken fighter
will i be the collected charmer
or the simple evony farmer
i often wonder if ive lost who i am
and if that was always the plan
did i ever like what i was
or was i faking like everyone does
is that why im so scared
to show the world my soul unbarred
what am i so afraid they will see
what do i think is so wrong with me
why cant i ever see the man ive become
instead of the boy so young and dumb
i think i grew up right
least thats how i sleep at night
am i hiding with my masks
or is it instead their task
to hide the man who cant stay the same
the man who forgets his own name