Give Me A Minute

This is a poem about God...Not really my new found faith but my new found love. i have always thought there was a God, but until now I have never really loved him. The last 2 years have been the hardest of my life, and yet VERY few people know that, not e

Recently...

I couldn't forgive, I couldn't forget, I couldn't move on. I cried, and I cried. I couldn't pray, the words weren't there, as hard as I tried I couldn't pray. I cried, and I cried. I had to do something, I was scaring myself.

So I wrote. I wrote poems, that should never be read. I wrote songs, that should never be sung. I wrote a letter. I wrote a letter to a dear friend. A letter to someone whom I looked up to. This letter was read.

This letter was read. I got a response. This response changed my life. This friend knew how I felt, had been there before, and understood. UNDERSTOOD!! "Noone could ever understand," right? WRONG!! God understood. God knew my pain, he knew my heart, he knew my tears. He sent me this friend, such a wonderful blessing. He sent me this pain, yes, such a wonderful blessing.

I prayed, finally. I forgave, finally. I moved on, finally. I cried still. The pain is still there, but I don't care. I didn't forget, it was too big. I didn't forget, because I need that pain. God gave me that pain to help me live. He gave me that pain, so that I could remember just who he was.

I didn't forget, but I did forgive. I am not healed of the pain, but I am healed of the need to be healed of the pain. God isn't here to get rid of our problems. God is here to hold our hands, wipe tears from our eyes, even carry us. He is here to be leaned on. He is not our Jeannie he is our support system.

He IS here. But he is also there. He is beside me & you. Don't pray to be rid of your problems. Pray to feel and hand in yours. Pray to feel the need to lay down on the ground and yet still not feel low enough to be in the presence of God. God is almighty. God is amazing. God forgives. God provides. God LOVES. GOD LOVES YOU. The next time you pray, don't ask for anything. NOTHING. Thank Him for who you are. Thank Him for who He is. THANK HIM!! Thank Him for knowing the words before you can speak them.

Thank him for carrying you through the storms, and guiding you through the darkness. That is if you already know him.

 

If you don't already know Him, you must think I'm crazy. I am. I am crazy in love & crazy loved. If you don't already know him, then you need to change that. He is offering a hand to pull you along. He is offering a shoulder for you to cry on. He is offering more love than you or I could ever imagine. He is offering himself. Thank Him.

Jesus Christ was born, lived, &DIED. So that you could live forever with Him. Would you do that? (cause I sure wouldn't). Call me crazy but that is INSANE LOVE!!

Yes I am a CRAZY JESUS FREAK. But  hey, LOVE is a tricky thing.

If you read this, I don't know who you are, if you even care, or whether or not you share this feeling with me. But if you read this I am praying for you. Every night before I go to sleep if I don't forget(hey I'm not perfect) I am praying for you. I might not know your name, or even if anyone has read this, but God does, and I'm laying it on him to touch your heart and your soul with the same love he touched me with. And I'm laying it on him to get a good grip and never let go. I'm praying that you too will become a JESUS FREAK!

Author's Note

Please take every word seriously. I didn't plan to write this. I didn't plan on adding a writing of any kind, but I felt led to do it. If you took this to heart then please let me know, I would be more than happy to talk to any one about God. Jesus Christ. Debate with me. I don't care, as long as you give it the slightest chance.