PainA Poem by abraxus89
For two long years I trained relentlessly
For two long years I shed sweat, pain, blood and tears For two long years I suffered yet grew strong For two long years, I failed I once read, "Ireland is a place full of Magnificent failures" Aye, tis true Let me explain At first I was diseased Diseased with alcoholism and chain smoking I was ridden with a broken heart and soul that was but shaking without end I was lost, I came to a crossroads,chose a direction and followed The first year was hard, I battled conditions that made me sick, sore, that shook me to my very core I met immovable objects, yet I was beyond an unstoppable force Aye, for I am dangerous when I had a goal I was danger incarnate That first year showed me something It showed me a part of that was lost Lost in the years of haziness The haze was intoxication Intoxication but alcohol And so was past, the first year The second year came and started oh so well I was but skin and bone and yet the lungs of a giant For many a moon I trained and grew big and strong For those moons spent, were moons that stemmed wisdom into the fibres of my being In the year that followed so too did death Yet again I dodged deaths grip I have wondered, why have I not died in situations that would have killed another? An athiest I am yet I wonder? "Sister, do you watch over me, are you my own personal guardian Angel?" For two long months I learned to walk again, I learned to run again. They said id never run properly again, they said id be in too much pain They said I couldnt do it. Yet a summons, A call of duty appeared. "Son you have 2 months to learn to walk and run." said my dad Aye he knew my answer for I did not utter it aloud I passed my pshyical, when they said I couldnt. I was but a shadow of my former physical self, Yet my mind was immortal, a god in its own right My determination knew no end, it had no limit and no bounds They no nought of what they lost "You are on a waiting list" they said "F**k you" says I. Life grew tougher then, tougher then ever. For I know not my path, nor my goals nor my dreams Have I forgotten that of which once filled me with power? Has my determination retreated into the shadow abysal depths of my heart and soul? I am lost, borderline on giving up. Yet it is not in my nature to give up. I was told "You have a unique gift, you know that." "what do you mean?" I asked stupidly. My friend smiled "You never ever give up." he walked away. For I will fight to my very last breath Even in death I will fight For I will sacrifice my own soul before I give in I would erase my own existance from the spirals of the universe before I surrendered Yet where am I now? But ridden with pain. © 2013 abraxus89Author's Note
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1 Review Added on February 18, 2013 Last Updated on February 18, 2013 Authorabraxus89IrelandAboutHello, my name is Keith. Ive been writing since January 2010. I am a dream inspired novelist and im known to dish out a bit of poetry every now then too. I wont go into detail about myself, h.. more..Writing
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